A letter from February 1st, 2023

Time Travelled — almost 3 years

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...

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’otnd ietwr i. At lla.
Ulltaayc rea sgod i,nfe. Ddie on eon. Aog udjeg mthsno a tfel efw. Sonhtm i oga atuylalc sveen ikhtn. Of mmo terid got hmi. Funyn rcsnitiah tmnineo yuo. Hes felt 2204 ni. Whoel nwbeete in i hda ew a aws eeamrtntt uhcbn ni ehwli. Nad ouy osnmht tnid’d uotab o’dtn ehmo ho ni attrmenet ath!t go 22 orf swa kwon i oenc. Gncimo hiotngt is h!tigr f,etl bcka eiinensrgtt satnirich escaube rheospeekeu our autlyalc uoerivsp arcge saw owh. For poecul nebe a rehe years ntkih a ahs sha. Odgo h’sse.
Ot i sa teaetrmnt ntew i eie,dnnotm. To fo 9th ieldmd atht of rofm eth h7t lemddi etlsad. Eth so enw flte umytiallet adn eht to iltton pteattm iwchh dsaetrt maireshhp i tbu a rfo to teh erts of icedsiu ahd lsathipo had fro ni wkee i me newt ohlcso 0,th1 velae ni a 9,ht. Ta ellw! s…lcoho onw the kwee asw fo m’i it srfti oh siofun. Sloohc ityc ni oesd atth lgrnneia no a het eon ayd ti’s one. Reay, ’im irbch nxte noggi to plrbaoby. Igrht aemn oyu pngiskea eerw fi eth i wluod uoy to rmeermeb won. Ether twen cerhail. Wow jounir e!yra. I’ll oto be eyra there i inesor tiknh. Ym add tnwas uytds me ot in efnrac. I gcelleo ’lli ltli tnhik iatw. Ceglelo loeelgc!. .
Nsqiseuot tnew rneve eht i eeuacbs about akbc esurym ierrsngadigd.
It rof i bysba’ nnmteeecmmoc nedretur lats omhe go i 9th as dna oldcu tlinu i yatsde reh idd ryae uctoh eeuacsb ehnw drgae in swa i hiwt ot ogln sa. Infe ti aws. Tiltel a eigsne but segus evnoy,eer awrakwd i wsa icen it. Rmysue i lfte ogndi epsodtp i sropst hewn. N’tdo peydal 3 elats i’ve wno rayse i at ekcoyh orf tknhi. I ownk. Y’oud lbpyoabr codeshk be. Ubota dto’n eb i sepoansati used aadonysw i,t tbu i ot i segus reac. I dha hsoclo tasl i as but cyeohk idfle to mbepstere sdai eaevl dtsaetr. Terhi maon were nad fro ctaasipn ryae the serino dnlemay. Uwodl nebe it i nad utb ahev onam ’wnast eehrt em. Me abyb dlot. .
Spioaslth laemnt. On pdts. T,dps etdgerrig wlel ubt mi’ ont eys. Hc ni ecntncoutic enver i ot aspholit tenw bcak. Kithn 5 6 won or i sicen neeb stih i retwo ot ve’i. So saw venia oww i.
Frcetep on. Nife taecltroh si. I reh ujen mntnmeoceemc swa ni sya’bb i ot wtne wenh. Eviblee a i nudtgigara ’ntac uoy ni m?noh?st pouelc cduol hses’ ustj. Ehkcyo ildef dinurg eikl borke hinkt astl hes hre i amr raey. ‘24. Pu grene hwit augthc mr. Dsiesm nwko i eh me. Llet i odclu. Ti das saw tjsu as tgetno rzelidea si ’eiv i solthyen, edrlo leif no vminog utb fo tarp. Tobau so ht,at tnofe o’tdn dna ddi i juts mhi i nktih. Lla tuyaacll ta. Dna ’staht ko. Ko mi.
Emovd nto haev esshou.
Got 71 16, hte ieophn own.
On nspceamdi.
Rangadm astl ertag yam died.
Dot’n midn egdnin i ltsrete tath teh hy,ae. Oemr veah to write eifl ym elwoh i.
To gingo uincoent was nad nda gitrh aceuesb mi’ amtyaon twgiahnc rwite i y’sgre to wno wtna ckab nto. Euabecs me i to did, nwok i yuo anedtw btu. A nad aeredprp ugh stap lubkec lsef cmeos thaw ays adn udcol ofr i up ntex wihs evgi eb i ym dan. Onthngi tetill ebecaus neci dlowu tbu aehv eneb a rgnwian ,me locud prepera. Wblo idd otktki a goa on yua,lcatl i eyar pu. As eth ni cakb gviinl gto morf i ighdih,stn in enoc saw atte,ntrme i tsap i abkc kloo. Wsa otsr redleaiz rognw i lfet hbedni i dan eerenovy hda of ,up. A lod arye orfm 13 2032 keil. Nda ryae iltnu later it dit’nd rzeieal i a. Neo ym dan i eomh i nda rfeiplo of tginteg ydrab irctpue ot fomr merbmree 2220 hnniggac. 5220 saw it. I yeslf,m but i dha fo hsopto hda on hgiontn. I 2202 nddti’ ti ilezrae roayenm tsaw’n nda. Em on odmev loeepp uothtiw dha. An,syayw ahtt rugoh asw. Irlav rowk ti a did kktoit i ot teims etrid upelco og i dna on tkihn. Ouhthg crzya hointgn. Gto akdche allads teh llo ctoanuc. Tbu nru hrskeca pu anich semo in tslli s’ti by. I ubt nkhti etyh nnufy psto sti’ ondt’. Ehnppa nokw ahtt or be si lraeplla jsut ,ewitc ieesvnru fi htnigs tish oems ykoa rgindea etehr rwehe a yaw ni ’ryeuo lylu’o. Ilwl kema otu ti nad you. Yu’llo temsi tbu be hewre ouy tuo, you lwli d’otn wlil ediynlietf kame it hiknt three. Ti od i hwo i ?oknw ascebue nad idd. Fo fo elfi i uot tsemi teh searkdt ti mead epdstee ym. Fctrepe ton ti own si tghir. All ta. Otn itb noe. I lltsi eahv gsstruegl myna. Ktoo i fro od rfo aeebsuc od dan i ahve not thaw ta i that iotnp mi’ ot atregulf taedg,nr ubt ownk won it neo. So sryca lfei is oooooos. Teh it’s ruhtt. Tbu im,tltuyela eocm ah,eppn adn erlsfuoy ie’v tbu ouy loyn uardno rnesop eloppe eht on ,mivgno and is tksic tngshi pkee ot jtsu yuo reve is ebeausc lsoesn that heav go, ot egtibsg teh nre,dale cunot. .
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Olev uyo i.
Ffo nngigsi.
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,t6h pm553: - acrmh 2062 no,rggiae.
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parmis.is.blue:

9 days ago

hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)

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