A letter from February 1st, 2023

Time Travelled — almost 3 years

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...

Oremayn. Eadgnir laotil for inhsegl. Si ti soohlc rfo ilke tbu adn ti ti ooso i ecidpk.
Wetir i don’t. All ta.
Cuylatal dsgo n,ief era. No iedd oen. Hnotms telf efw oga a jgdeu. Aog htikn altayulc i nsvee tsnomh. Omm ihm ogt ridte fo. Mtinnoe nyunf oyu hiacsrtni. In 2240 she ltef. Twebeen lhiwe cnubh i ni a rteaettmn ew in swa olhwe had. Enoc about d’itnd 22 dot’n ho ownk nomsth ttha! ni ofr i asw og adn meho oyu tattmreen. Crgea htiicsran hkrusoeepee beusaec gonhitt ef,lt t!rgih nmcoig si uro wsa how setienrntig lycaatlu supiroev kacb. A for sarye ahs ereh sah neeb uoclep hkitn a. Dogo s’ehs.
Nwte sa ,neontidme i to i ttreetmna. Ot mdeild romf fo het of adtlse 7th tath ht9 lmeidd. Os eht hda of in letf ihmpehrsa 9ht, me eaelv ialopsth i iseidcu ster lcsooh hte wkee a tbu whihc dah in eth ittnlo to nwet fro nwe h10t, ofr i limleautyt dan tmaettp to a stdater. Ho lo…csho mi’ lelw! ewek wno saw rfist at ti uinofs of teh. Ni yitc htat neo coshlo einrngal i’ts no eht oen a dsoe ady. Er,ay brcih tnex bylbapro to niggo mi’. Now oyu lwoud name ithrg ot eth fi i erew you epasgnki rmmeebre. Irhacle rehet ntwe. Ry!ea rnioju oww. Raey trehe nikth esnroi ’ill oot eb i. Em my arfnce ot antsw stuyd dad ni. Eeloclg i iltl hiknt ll’i aiwt. Ecegll!o ceogell. .
Cuesaeb otbua neustqsio i kcab grigeirndasd hte tnew rsyemu erenv.
Eyar to wiht enhw ht9 i dculo as ulint in ti saetdy lgno was idd cenmmtocmene i adn i graed erurnted reh tucho for i go ysba’b mhoe as atls cseebua. Wsa neif ti. Illtet aws a wwadkra but it ornveey,e icen neiesg esugs i. I i wneh psoepdt tsorps dgoni telf semryu. Nwo ntod’ ysrae yadlep ofr lseat ta 3 ’ive i nkiht hoekcy. Kown i. Olarpbyb ekodchs be ’oyud. Usesg btu sedu t’ond eb aoyawnds aoanesitps i to erca baotu i i i,t. As eykhco idefl sadrett vaeel teermbspe iasd i i lats tbu to ohocsl had. Nda ryae moan ioensr edlnamy het tiher isatnpac reew rof. It nad odwlu ’swnta i nbee noma tub me vahe rhtee. Oldt em byba. .
Talnme tpslosahi. On dstp. Llew errgtgedi otn ,ptds esy im’ tub. I tahosilp in enrev ch cbak ioctencutnc wnet ot. I i 5 ’evi ikthn nwo eneb to shit ewtro or 6 snice. I wwo was os naeiv.
No etcefpr. Si hcatloter nief. Swa uenj ewnh ni ometcemcennm ’sabby i to nwet hre i. In uiraggtnad ?nsho?tm iblevee cluod tujs opcelu i sesh’ a ctan’ uyo. Krobe her flide satl yrae ehs eyhkoc i ndurgi khnti arm ikle. ‘42. Tghauc pu egenr mr hwit. He wnko i em edimss. Ltle cudlo i. It on as fo ,otlseyhn saw i si adieerzl arpt tgneto utb oreld sutj sad lief i’ve mvigon. ’dtno i h,tat ddi adn mhi os obtau stju inthk feton i. Tauyallc ta all. Adn ’attsh ko. Im ok.
Ehouss tno aveh oevdm.
Eth ipneoh won tgo 6,1 71.
On pdcimeasn.
Namdgra egatr lsat eidd aym.
Yhea, dont’ setetlr ndgien dmin htta i the. Moer flie evah ym i lhweo to itwre.
Asw ot wnightac ot nad adn uesbeac mi’ wno etirw ntaw i ngigo acbk ’ygser iunceton trghi nto tmaoyna. Uyo wtdane i i to owkn uaecbes di,d me tbu. Veig htaw oludc dna atsp coems i rarpdeep nad guh dan ebcukl a up my enxt be i orf iwsh elsf yas. But ncei ebne eahv e,m a lelitt cuold beceasu nhtgoin rerppae ianwrng lowdu. A i yuacla,tl on olbw aog kkttoi reya idd up. Sa iilgvn nteat,ermt okol kcba i oenc ormf was got i acbk hidgsntih, eth aspt i in ni. Fo i wgorn hebidn p,u i saw lfte osrt aezredli eeeoyrnv nda ahd. Dol from a 2302 13 eary ielk. I’ntdd utnil ti dan eyar ratle a rizleae i. Dan tieggnt adn 0222 omfr hoem eeembrmr ahcggnni abdry eno ym i i fiprleo ucrepti to fo. Ti asw 2502. Nhgtino of had adh i emyls,f ubt ohpsot on i. Oaermyn erlieaz 2220 ’tdnid ti twnas’ i nad. Me lppeoe dah thoiutw no edmov. Htat uoghr nwasay,y wsa. Adn did ntihk i og rvlia i ktotik a it to ietms ditre eulocp wrko on. Yczar ohtuhg ghonint. Oll gto eht sallad deahkc tnocuac. Lslti emos ’ist tbu up in run nacih achskre by. Fnyun hitnk yeth s’it i on’td utb psot. Htis okya ro tgihns stju in is laelrpla rehte way fi o’uyll be pehapn ttha e,itcw rnieagd reuesniv eryu’o a ehwre esmo wkno. Ouy emak ti will out nad. Ti tkihn iytidlneef but uyoll’ uyo lwil ,uto eehrt d’ont amke ehrew yuo wlil eb tseim. I od it ddi i sbaeecu dna ?wkon ohw. Karetsd tou i tdeepse of estim my ilfe het fo mead ti. Nwo ti not htirg si ceefrtp. Lal at. Ibt eon ont. Mnay ahev litsl i tgregluss. Ofr asuebce od atht tponi od ofr i now tueagrlf btu owkn i nda took im’ waht otn to tedga,nr i ta ti oen hvea. Arsyc os is osooooo leif. Eht rutth si’t. Erev umtyati,lel you no eusbaec ictsk to rdauno dna pha,pne teh ensols ,og poelpe aveh ubt tounc but het slyfrueo atth eigtgsb ouy hngsit ot eopsrn gm,voni is ive’ ocme lrndeae, peke dna si lony sujt. .
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I uyo elov.
Nniigsg fof.
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Cmarh goaen,rig - p:5m35 ,ht6 2602.
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parmis.is.blue:

8 days ago

hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)

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