A letter from February 1st, 2023

Time Travelled — almost 3 years

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...

Nyemroa. For oailtl angidre sghenil. Leik ti si pceidk loohsc it it osoo btu fro dna i.
Rtiwe dnt’o i. Lla ta.
Sgod ctualyal are fni,e. No noe eddi. Aog djegu sotmnh lfte wef a. Aog venes mohtsn i nihkt lytcalau. Ogt omm diret mih fo. Uyo nfnuy nschirita mnioetn. Felt ni seh 2204. Holwe eewnetb asw tetnemrat hweil ni ni we i nbcuh ahd a. Ocne yuo tidn’d rtteenmat tta!h go wokn ho hsmotn and ohme autob 22 in rfo saw don’t i. Si eprvosiu allaytuc woh tgsernietni !higrt kbac uro saw fte,l crage ntohigt cmgnio basecue eepskeheuro arinitchs. Epulco sha orf a hsa hree sreya thnik bnee a. Good ss’eh.
Eeindnt,om enwt aretttmen ot i i as. 9ht fo h7t ilddme eldsta to het imdled mofr of tath. To ahd ,h01t but tdresat fo hcoslo fro ttapetm a eht thpasilo tfle the kewe so iiucsed ni erst em i timutaelly ltniot dha eht enw nda in hhicw to ewnt a ramishehp i for t9h, eleva. Ta fo eth won weke tifrs l!ewl loo…hcs mi’ ho it wsa iuofns. Day on ctyi ilagrenn ni eht noe st’i oen ttah sdoe a ochsol. Bboryalp ihbrc ot i’m nxet yrea, ngigo. Ouy own rihgt if ot the i you amne uwold iksgenpa rwee eeebmmrr. Three ewnt ehrical. R!yae ujiron oww. Be ryea hrete kniht ll’i i noseir oto. Ni swtna dad rcfnea me ym tudsy to. I hinkt ltli li’l lolegce iwta. Elegocl eo!legcl. .
Nevre utissqnoe i bkca teh newt esyumr oatbu giddrsaengir euasceb.
Ddi and sa oclud oehm it h9t hre wiht i ognl slta i otuhc rdaeg go sa ni enccoetnemmm aws ot ba’sby enwh cebusea tneurred aydest i ryae unilt orf i. Aws nefi it. I a n,oeevrye neci sgues ti tellit enegsi wsa utb kdarwaw. I eftl ongid i hwen syemru sedtppo postsr. Kocyeh htnki i dpealy wno seyar lseta fro e’iv tod’n at 3. I okwn. Ud’oy dhoesck eb lorpbyab. Eusd i saiapnseot ubt otbua it, be ot i aywoasnd ’ndot i rcea suseg. Stla tseeeprbm ubt ilfde eardstt i ot i dais shoolc velea sa echoyk dah. Eithr aomn and het anledym ewer for raey sncpaita snroie. Amno em eebn adn i aehv tub at’nsw it reeht wdulo. Byab em dlot. .
Tnelam shstialop. On sdpt. Rtgridgee wlel but nto ’im esy sp,td. Stphalio ni to ch tnwe bcka nticteouccn i eevrn. To i now i hkitn cneis vie’ orwte or 5 6 tihs enbe. Swa anvei os wwo i.
On fprctee. Is ohteclart ifen. To tenw sba’by ehr ecocetmnmnme i njue nehw i ni asw. E’hss i lodcu vebliee a ni uyo ujts ’antc raautndggi polecu months??. I nhkti rma ekil yheock beokr hse hre ledif uingdr ryea alts. 2‘4. Pu egrne ihwt mr guthac. I kwno em ssdemi eh. I llet udloc. I sa nimvgo it eifl tongte tujs no utb ,eoytlhsn rdloe fo eierlzda i’ve das is saw rpat. Hmi i n’tdo i etnof uabot did ustj ta,th nda so ikhtn. Ullactya lla ta. ’atths ok nda. Ko mi.
Aevh dvome ton usoshe.
The own epiohn gto 71 ,61.
Aipncsmde on.
Ided amgndar treag aslt yma.
Dginne imnd het o’dtn htat eetlstr i ay,eh. Ehva ym lief orem rteiw wleoh ot i.
Riewt nad asw mtnaoay ubecesa ot ot won tgirh ntaw ’mi ton dna wnachtgi kcba tinoucen onigg rs’eyg i. Me i wkno d,di dwnaet oyu to tub i aseeucb. Rof pu i pats i texn ahwt prepeadr kelcub dan hwsi a dan mecso eb luocd vige uhg asy fles and my. Ecni inwgnra aescube rprepea ldouw duloc teltli em, nebe ntnhgoi veah a ubt. A up lwbo ayre toitkk lua,layct no i gao idd. Ofrm ckab i i sapt in het i in emetr,ntta as ceon tog hdistn,ihg ngvili olok asw ckba. Hda i of i elft wsa wnogr nreoyeve pu, rsot ndebih eiaeldrz dna. Mfro 31 a year leki dlo 3202. I idtn’d eaerilz a tniul it eatrl and raye. I yadrb tgtgien lipeorf rpueitc ym i nad oehm bremeerm fomr eno nda chgganin ot 2202 fo. It aws 5022. I noignth no hda fo i utb lfsym,e dha pshoto. 0222 tid’dn it ts’nwa zielare and aoeymrn i. Lopeep dah on oemdv hituwto me. Atth hruog aws waasyyn,. Riedt ti rowk rvila i og ikkott no did nkhti nda to a oueplc etmsi i. Ginhton arzyc uhhtgo. Akhcde got salald llo het ncoauct. Emos ianch nur yb pu istll tbu sekhcra in ti’s. Nnfyu yhet hnkti tbu i s’ti dtn’o opst. If yrueo’ paalrell rndiage ngtsih a in ihst rneevusi si ykao c,itwe awy lyl’ou seom ahnpep wereh ujst kwon be atht heert ro. Tou meak uoy lilw and ti. Esitm ti lwil be llwi kihnt out, you hrewe ouy utb t’ndo kmea ehert fyiendleti y’loul. Onkw? do did dan i it hwo i uaeebsc. Ym it eilf mdae erastdk teh fo i deespte tuo tmsei of. Eprceft it otn nwo ghrit si. Lla ta. Noe ont bit. I tusgresgl heva llits yamn. Wno rof do nkwo to ont oen ttha ti ta i i tgrelauf do thwa eavh inpto ’im rfo nda koto eucabes d,taerng but i. Elif is osooooo so rcyas. Utthr eht ’tis. Eolfyrsu tegbgsi inmgv,o pepoel ersnop ncuto nad to ensols is hvea taht to mcoe isctk tbu epek ,appneh utjs andeerl, eerv lony yemiula,ltt nad dourna you i’ev intshg on si tbu ouy subeaec the hte og,. .
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Lvoe i yuo.
Off signing.
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Amhrc 2206 g,gnoirea - th,6 m55p:3.
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parmis.is.blue:

4 days ago

hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)

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