Dear FutureMe,
Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️
Epilogue
about 1 month later
Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...
Anymroe. Ernagid lnigseh olital rof. Si ti ti it cohlos fro ooos iekpdc lkie i btu nad.
Dtn’o i weitr. At all.
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To newt i as i metdinneo, reetamntt. Th7 htat imdlde fo to mdeldi eth sadetl of ht9 frmo. Tbu hwhic teh i so i for lfte sret a nad sudicie had ni ot hda oltitn ltlteaiymu tspailoh hte atrdets eht ht,9 h1t0, in atmettp a olcohs mehhspari wkee velae to ewn rof fo wnte em. At ho fiuson slco…oh week fo m’i saw onw eht lwe!l ti isfrt. Eth does a tath ni i’st icyt one soolhc ranginel no neo ayd. Eay,r iggon cbihr txen ’im to ylbborpa. I you erew hte you wuldo nwo htgri anepkisg fi to mberreem name. Eiahrcl ehert wetn. Ye!ar nrijou oww. Ethre oto srenio be eary li’l i hinkt. Me in asntw dad ym cfnare to uytsd. I atwi khtni llti eleogcl ’lli. Ogcllee g!collee. .
Eiqnstuso bcka egiarrndgids het mesyru ceuabse vrene aubto newt i.
Regad atdsey ni sa saw i nad did yrae locdu tlas ebesuca twih ommtmeenencc ocuht i ulitn enhw i hre th9 ohme sa asyb’b tdrneure i nglo to ti go ofr. Nife was ti. A ti ecni utb lieltt eyv,eeorn aws wdakrwa i enegsi gsseu. Gidon i sropts pedsotp i uysmre enhw flet. Tkhni for sayre own daeylp eatls ta iev’ ockehy 3 i dn’ot. Konw i. Be dyou’ yorbbapl oskhdec. Iseonasapt be ot nt’do suges i tub i i t,i nwsaaody tbuoa acer uesd. Ehkyco peebestmr aevel idas last btu deifl adh atesrdt ot i as holsoc i. Eth maon wree adn arey aspintca eaylnmd irhet ornsie ofr. Bene dna me uowld but evha ti oamn wst’na erthe i. Em otdl bbay. .
Nemtal lhosatisp. Pdts on. Not but llwe i’m tpsd, esy rgregietd. Went i cucentctino lasiphto neerv abck ch ot in. I i ro 5 to onw bene ensci owrte knthi thsi ’vei 6. Wwo so was i ineva.
On eecprtf. Ottlaecrh inef si. Was ni i nwet eoecmecnmtnm hre b’asyb ujen i to hnwe. Oeuclp ’sseh iartngduag eelebvi ni ocdlu tjsu oyu c’ant ts?nom?h i a. Htnik gnduir ram yaer boerk lats ilek kheyco erh fldie i hes. 2‘4. Ghctua nereg rm htwi up. Wnok i eh siesmd me. Dculo i ltel. Sad elrdo tjus nmoivg saw tgneot as ti flie iv’e ratp but of is i eldzeiar s,otyelnh no. I tbaou oentf nad ithkn ’ndto hmi tsuj did i t,hta os. Ytucalal lla at. Nda h’stta ok. Ko mi.
Ton aevh hoessu dvoem.
Wno got nihope 71 ,16 het.
No incsdmeap.
Aym ddei astl aragdnm getar.
Dnim i dnto’ etetrsl the dnigne yahe, hatt. Oehlw to moer flie ym ahve i etriw.
Esg’yr wno anwt beuasce niggo i hiwacntg back ierwt aws nda nad ’im ot ont to moaynat intconue gtihr. Uaeescb to d,id i enatdw wkno me ouy i utb. And tpsa dererapp somce i elsf i be xetn my udocl a rfo dan ysa gvei hwat eclbku dan hgu wish up. A pererap been ecin thoingn m,e utb tlltie cebesua dwoul irwnnga duocl aehv. Pu a calyta,lu eary did iotkkt obwl i no aog. Lkoo i ni hte i ckba eocn bcak frmo in asw i astp iilvng gi,ndthshi as ogt ,mtneratet. Ronwg i nad derzeail i ahd veeoenyr ostr left fo dbienh pu, was. A ilek raey rofm 13 3220 dol. T’ddin nda ti a i tuinl rilaeez arye earlt. Ohme ot yrabd 2202 fmro dna fo iflrpoe cuprtie ghicnnag eno ym mmebreer i dan enigttg i. It swa 0252. Gtnihno hda ahd i no but i fo ohtpso fyles,m. Iddtn’ it reanmyo eralzei nad i 0222 s’natw. No peeplo dha ttiwohu em odmve. Swa urgho thta nas,yway. A totkki to go pelcou ihtnk adn i did liavr ti krwo no ietms itred i. Azrcy hgouht otnnigh. Lsdaal cntucoa hkdeac lol teh tog. In hcnai btu tsi’ tllis by earhcsk nur esom up. Psot tbu n’tod tsi’ ynfnu i heyt kniht. Gandrie lrlpleaa jsut ayok eahpnp stih et,wci or theer ownk fi ueryo’ is mose eeisvnru tath in a ayw hewer be hisntg u’oyll. Akem dan out it uoy lwil. Dn’ot l’yluo rheet ubt efiinltyde illw etims ti ou,t ouy ehrwe eb nkith kame llwi uoy. Wnok? i and it did do ebseacu i hwo. My desarkt tsime teh eadm efil fo of teeepsd i it uto. Ton trfpeec githr is nwo it. Ta lal. Ibt noe otn. Isllt lsrgugste nmya i aehv. Hvae nitop one nwo rfo tkoo do i atth konw asucebe to ta od btu tuagrlfe gaenrdt, ti dan hawt i ’im i not rof. So syrac is oosoooo eilf. Sit’ het utthr. Veer dnelear, eth si ,hpenap ndaoru tbu adn only ahtt gnmvio, btggsei to ive’ rloeufys ,og eht lpeeop oslens ot ouy utb is eepk ulittaemy,l ouy sjut oemc nad nihstg ocutn ehva sbeauce tikcs on sreopn. .
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Yuo elvo i.
Iingsng fof.
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H,6t 553mp: 2026 ramch - onrageg,i.
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hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)
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