A letter from February 1st, 2023

Time Travelled — almost 3 years

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️

Epilogue

about 1 month later

Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...

Eormany. Rof ilgnehs loital rinedag. Klei si ti ti ooso olhcos ti nda i btu ofr peicdk.
Wtier o’dtn i. Ta all.
Aer dsgo tlclyaau ,nife. Oen ddie on. Few a flte oga dejug snomth. Evesn oag hmston khitn i ylaltcau. Mom tderi imh ogt of. Oyu ricashtni oinmnte unnyf. Fetl 4220 in hse. Holew teneebw i nhubc ni ettnreatm ehwli ahd ni was a we. Og mrtetneta i know was hnmsot ’tnidd eomh in 22 ecno oh dont’ tbaou rof nad tth!a you. Aws eebucas tgh!ri eupeoerkseh sgrtnenitie ckba lactaluy oru gotithn tle,f si rouivpse who iishctnra eagrc mnigco. Pceulo easyr a eehr bnee has a ahs rof nktih. Ogdo ehss’.
Went to as etmrnatet i d,meioennt i. Fmor the th9 ht7 lmiedd hatt to of adslte fo deimld. Nda eht eflt a ilttuylmae ,9th orf wen os hiaslpto hda ni of mttapet hda i tlonti em a to to hiwch hrhpimase nwet i tub loohcs evale for eht setr sadrtet h0t,1 the kewe eiuicds ni. Oh ti ta won weke the lwe!l ifsrt fo ’im ounsif swa …oshlco. Neglrani yad a in ’sit hlcoos on teh noe one ttah odse cyti. Extn bobayplr ribhc to oggin m’i ae,ry. Eerw fi own i name eremermb gtihr sepaking het udowl oyu uyo ot. Eethr hlceair nwet. Wwo ourjni !year. Inthk eb oto ayre trhee ’ill i sneiro. Me styud dad my ni frncea taswn to. Iatw i elegclo nkhti tlil l’il. Ceelglo lgloec!e. .
I muyrse ssnouieqt esecuba otaub abck twne evnre eht egisadgrridn.
Sa aws neturedr litun th9 ddi as go lcduo omeh b’aysb to sdetya drage i ltsa tucoh it nda ihtw useabce hnew ryae i i nlog i ni fro metnenmccmoe ehr. Eifn ti asw. Gesus ilttle adkwwra a re,vneyoe swa it i ngseei ince tub. Dotspep i myures hnwe ssrtpo nidog tfel i. 3 i at hokeyc areys aestl ’evi lpeady fro hnkti o’tdn own. I wnko. Yabbplro dhcosek y’oud be. Obaut onpaetaiss i it, i to but i edsu cear eb dsanawoy esgsu nto’d. I ohckye but lohocs sa salt mepeertbs tsdrtae idas i ahd fldie to aeelv. Norise eirht mona anmylde ctinsaap eyar for eewr teh adn. Oudlw dna bnee ahve em it i namo snta’w ubt ehtre. Abyb me ldot. .
Ntealm iathsplos. No tspd. D,tsp ’mi erdegtgri tno yes elwl ubt. Neerv i thsaliop wnet in hc to acbk cuotcetncin. Vi’e ot own i bnee htnki i shti 5 6 encsi ro oewtr. Aws wwo ievan i os.
On teprcfe. Si fien hecttarlo. Abbys’ enwh ehr ewnt swa juen i mcnotnceemem i to ni. Ragutndgai ocldu a she’s ni ocepul bevilee nm?sh?to i utjs uoy cnt’a. I borke rnugdi hre aeyr amr ehkocy lidef tihkn lsat ehs klei. 2‘4. Guctah twih pu ergne rm. Ssmdei me i he konw. I ltel doclu. Dsa i ti trpa erdlo sa wsa tbu ildezaer vniomg tsuj e’iv ynheo,tls lfei fo no tnoteg si. I tnihk a,tth him atobu i onfet d’nto ddi stju so adn. Lla at taulcyal. Sh’tta dan ko. Ok mi.
Aevh dovme ton suheso.
The 61, tgo 17 onw ophine.
Depnsaicm on.
Aretg lsat ided mya mdraagn.
Egdnin trleest imnd eth ot’dn taht i ,ayeh. Vhea itrew mreo ym flei woleh to i.
And syg’er teinocnu cwthnaig ot wsa tno tnaw ongig rwiet m’i rihtg to ayoatnm i dan now ebausce ackb. Me i besuace oyu to wonk utb tdnwea i d,id. Nad and sya satp pedrarpe my pu wsih nad leucbk ocesm veig hwat xtne fesl ofr ghu dcolu a i eb i. Otinngh wodlu tlilet aveh aeperrp m,e cine nngwria ebne clduo a eauebcs utb. Oikttk on i lt,yaualc ddi bwlo pu a ayre ago. Cneo past asw in hte dhing,hist ogt nliivg okol cbka i abkc omfr sa atetnmt,re i i in. I ibehnd elft srto dan rwngo zriladee p,u i veeyneor was dah of. Fomr kiel 31 dol a 2230 eary. I ni’ddt ti later a reya lizraee nuilt dna. I eohm ot oen euirtpc 2202 fo nad gitnteg nagchgin mofr orpefil nad my arydb i mrmbreee. Was it 2052. I f,eslmy oposht onhgtin on hda i utb fo had. It i lreazei 2220 atswn’ aomeyrn td’ind nda. Loepep mvode on adh em iohutwt. Taht saw awsayn,y gurho. Items rwok nda to tkotki idd a i i on og lviar hinkt ti ocpelu eirdt. Hoingtn ouhhtg ayzcr. Tcocuna lslaad lol eht ogt dahkce. Tbu msoe rnu tsi’ listl yb chnia in pu rakhesc. Is’t eyth ond’t unnfy i ubt kinth spto. Icw,te some stgnih wkon ro iseenuvr eb way if neaphp l’louy htat a okay reehw ether ni juts ageidrn r’eyou plaearll si isht. Ekam ouy wlil it tou dna. Tnd’o mtesi weerh yuo btu lwli fdyiitenel eb uto, amke iwll kniht ’loylu yuo rehet ti. I od ecabsue dna it ddi who i onw?k. It i rdkstea daem fo epeteds teh esmti otu ym iefl of. Nwo is ecetpfr gtihr ton it. Lla at. Ton neo tib. Useglsrgt eahv tlils i ymna. I at getradn, tionp nwo rof ecbesau not i it i adn ot tkoo orf but do noe thta im’ rateulgf nwko thaw ehva do. Os si scary fiel oooooso. Httur eth ’tsi. Tub elsson jsut on ctski gihstn iev’ odarun pesnro si ever ahtt si oyu gsibteg tucon oelppe but go, ynlo llymuit,aet uyo het nad hvae gmn,ivo ot napeh,p nraed,el eekp ot ecbueas ueslofry dna hte ceom. .
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Uoy ovel i.
Fof iigngns.
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- 2620 crhma oaegi,rgn p:3m55 6h,t.
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parmis.is.blue:

1 day ago

hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)

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