Dear FutureMe,
Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️
Epilogue
about 1 month later
Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...
Eraoynm. Ilolta ieslngh edrniga rof. Utb icpekd fro ti it sooo ekli ti si i sooclh dan.
Rewti dont’ i. At all.
N,ief ltlacyua dsog rae. Edid on oen. Ftel eudgj mshotn oag a ewf. Tnihk i gao senev laclyuat tnoshm. Etdri omm him got fo. Nynfu ouy itirashcn imneont. 0242 in ltfe she. In oelwh was tenttrame nubhc dah i we lihwe twebeen in a. Go asw ttrameten onkw hta!t dna 22 uaotb ni t’odn nceo td’dni oh uoy i ntohms orf emoh. Nothitg uro is cbak ig!rht hwo tnihraics ylautlac asw gaerc beceaus fet,l onmgic esehuopkere uvrpsoie gtnirtensei. Hsa ahs tkihn eenb earys for epulco a erhe a. Essh’ ogod.
Nwet tmntertae ot i sa mei,tdneon i. Demild fo asdetl fmro h9t fo edmdli h7t teh ahtt ot. Eth a me and but eealv flte adh h,t9 to i tonitl olcohs keew i for t1h,0 eth enw prahemihs in drestat went rets pamttte iuisecd ni ot whhic of aylutmltie fro eht so oshplati a had. Teh wle!l now ta fo nuofis aws fsirt ekew im’ ti oh h…coslo. A shcool the angrieln osde s’ti ycit in oen one ttah on ady. Texn i’m to gigon cbrih ar,ye ploarbyb. Enma het ghtir to i rebreemm ouy you if dlouw now geknpisa ewer. Twen teher erchlai. Oww nrouij ry!ae. Il’l oto be hktin eary ethre i eionsr. Tsawn cfaenr stduy ym dad ni em ot. ’lil geolcle illt inhkt taiw i. Elge!clo oleglec. .
Netw revne akbc sruyem btoau eth touqnssie drigeadrings acuebes i.
Ddi dna in as i sa i i newh eagdr asw to uhotc raey cluod 9th drturene uasceeb goln meoenccnetmm rfo ti og ltinu saybb’ i hre aeytds salt meoh hiwt. Saw ienf ti. Essgu saw inec i a eisegn wwrkada it ee,onvyer utb ilttle. I i ureyms ndogi storsp when tefl pestpdo. Laste ktihn layped own rsaey fro i 3 ta ohkcye nto’d evi’. Wkno i. Bbaprylo eb od’yu dkcohes. ,it nodt’ acer ot bauot gsues i i nwsdoyaa esdu i but napsiotaes be. Asdi ildef velea sa i cehoyk i ot slcooh utb tatserd tals etbsmpeer had. For anom eonsri aantcpsi edylman ehrit yrae het ewre and. Omna btu tsan’w eenb i eavh em it dolwu hetre and. Ybba dtol me. .
Hoptssali nemtla. Dstp no. Im’ reergtidg pd,ts sey btu llwe nto. Bcka i ctiuntnccoe tlsaoihp in rvene ch to ntwe. I twreo ot ’iev eben i 5 thsi 6 scein won or tihkn. Eniva os wwo i asw.
Cepfetr on. Etthcorla is ifne. Wenh i ewnt ecemnemctomn jenu i asw a’ysbb in erh to. Couelp esh’s i a granugdati lbievee ni ncat’ ntm?h?so yuo tjsu loduc. Ehr satl esh ekorb kinth eayr i diunrg lkei eilfd mra ychoek. ‘24. Wiht pu ergne mr agtuch. Esdims me eh i kown. Tlel i locud. Sylntoeh, ti i’ve nomgvi dlero elfi i of juts as si rpat tbu totneg sad leizraed on swa. I ithnk so utoba mhi i ’dnto ddi tah,t and tfone usjt. At all alacyutl. S’ttah dna ok. Ok im.
Osesuh evha dmveo ton.
Het otg wno nepoih 6,1 17.
Epicandsm no.
Madngar yam lsat aergt eddi.
Imnd ngiden ’odtn hte ahtt ae,hy trteesl i. I wteir eavh flei olhwe my eorm ot.
To ton tnyaamo bkca wsa to dan i ecnuoint irtgh tigancwh giong ysr’eg aueecbs onw ’im tnaw adn eiwtr. Dentwa me i konw utb easbceu uoy ,did ot i. Mceso raepepdr be swih i rof beculk apts iveg whta and i yas nad sfel a guh my cduol nad nxte up. Bene a ietllt em, ereaprp ubt ghtnion cine codul heav wraingn wdlou sucbaee. Talulay,c obwl up i aery oga kiottk idd on a. I gvinil hte aspt i as cbka in tog eet,mrntta neoc in rfmo ndsg,hithi wsa ookl ackb i. Dna i dah fo lrizadee gornw osrt saw i eihdnb ,pu oyvnreee ftle. 2032 31 ormf odl eyra lkei a. Raey idntd’ a i ti dna learezi lraet nitul. My noe cpiture errebmem i ohme i nad epilrfo 2220 to tgegnit frmo nad of dbary ngnihgca. 5022 ti wsa. On i onthngi fo had had oshotp i tbu sm,fley. Nditd’ ti nda i asn’wt 2220 erilzea yonmera. On had lppoee vmoed em ithtouw. W,asayyn rhugo hatt swa. Luocep adn ot korw i a liavr tkktio og ddi i iterd hinkt seitm no ti. Tionhng tohghu aczry. Kdehac eth ogt oll ldalas cntcuoa. But chnia in eoms schrkea by rnu tills ’sti up. Ist’ tihnk nyfun they tno’d but opts i. Trhee fi or be insvreeu ywa gistnh in some aaerllpl atth ngidrae si htis epanhp a wct,ei onwk loylu’ oyak tusj herew oye’ur. You kame and ti lilw out. Ut,o nyeditefli maek kihtn uyo lilw do’nt ether ewehr tsime illw utb uoy ti be ulylo’. I dan ti casubee ohw no?wk idd do i. Efil mead sdarkte ti i of eetesdp tuo emtsi eht my fo. Now is ont ti cetepfr hitrg. At lla. Ibt ton eno. Heav illst i ymna glusesgtr. Hvae one ot nwok do dng,erat i uftgarel i wno od adn koto not i’m thwa at orf it ubt hatt ntiop orf ebecusa i. Oosoooo acrsy is efli os. Urhtt eth its’. And to het lenoss ot on btu tgbsgei ovmn,ig the erev ueyfrsol loyn oesnrp outcn ujts ilmayleu,tt go, dronua n,learde ktics p,aepnh evah yuo uoy emco dan si but htta stnhgi si ive’ kpee acebesu lepeop. .
.
Evol i ouy.
Nnigisg fof.
.
G,oiangre 6022 - 5:3m5p rmhca t6,h.
💕.
This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please
Press ← and → on your keyboard to move between
letters
hey stranger!
i wish you luck and happiness on your journey <3 after reading this i am so proud of you and you also gave me some push to move forward (virtual hug)
so lets both keep on moving forward (SMILE)
parmis.is.blue:
3 months ago