A letter from Jan 21, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hey me, Last year was so difficult But we made it through, we didn’t let our mental health get the better of us, we kept up with our hobbies, self care, work and friends. Despite the few days or weeks where i needed to let myself feel, grieve and cry. Despite all the misery and panic attacks and reasons to give up, we didn’t. Im so glad we didn’t give up, especially after the ex. After making the choice to break up with him, of telling myself it was the right thing, that staying with him wasn’t fair on him. Especially then, when he died. I still can’t believe he died. Maybe I wouldn’t care so much if we had a bad relationship and a bad break up. No, i would still care. He was so gentle and kind and patient, it really is the best ones that leave us too soon. I wish i was there for him. We turn 20 this year. Big number. Proper adult number. Scary. But its okay, we are excited too, about the future, and our current relationship, we hope that lasts as long as possible. I hope we get into the career we want, i hope we stay happy despite our circumstances. I hope we get everything we want. I hope we stay HEALTHY and eat good yummy delicious food, cuz we deserve food, it’s good for us. I hope i stay in a good head space, stay motivated to do the things that KEEP me motivated. I hope i stay with my boyfriend, he’s amazing, but remember no one is perfect and don’t trust things said in anger, and be kind to him please. We are just doing our best to love each other. Its messy sometimes but being with him feels so good and warm and loving, he is so worth keeping around forever. Just do your best, even if ur best is just one small easy thing. ❤️