A letter from Jan 20, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I wonder if you’ve started a new chapter in life by now, and if you’re happier. Or if things have just gotten worse. I truly hope not. Currently you’re not in the best place mentally. Battling thoughts everyday of whether or not you should breakup with Cody, and how that would workout. With renting. With ivy. With him ever speaking to you again? It’s so painful. But I’m so plagued by it. Maybe by this time you will have a whole new set of worries, and you’ll look back on this and wish you could give me a hug. Lord knows I need it. I’m really just writing to you because you’re the only one whose advice I could trust, even though at the same time you’re the only one who can’t actually give me advice. I could cry right now, and he’s sitting in front of me playing video games and thinking everything is ok. I can’t move forward in a relationship where I have doubts this crippling. I hope you’re having fun.