A letter from Jan 19, 2023

Hey kid, you aren't so much of a kid anymore. You're grown up now. Remember when you wanted to be an adult so badly when you were a teen? How is it now? Is it really what we thought it was? Is that one guy you were so in love with still there? You know, maybe not, that's okay. Those situations will make you into a stronger person. You have always been strong. But if you two did stick around… Well, **** congrats. Must have been a wild ride. Have you traveled yet? Remember how much you wanted to get away and go to the mountains or go to southern California to see the beautiful sunsets? This summer we'll get to travel. It´ll happen soon. Remember to take things slow, I feel you rushed yourself so much thinking you had to do more than you needed to. Let yourself fully be present. You can't fully blame yourself for this feeling tho. Whatever made you feel this way, I hope you've moved on and started the life you've always wanted. Currently im at lunch, sitting at some random table with people I don't know. You've always just wandered around talking to people. You met a lot of different cool people and they've made you realize a lot about yourself and who you are. You are starting to make a group now. You met a girl named Gorgeous. She's pretty cool. She's open and lets you talk to her about anything. She's hardworking, you've always admired that about her. People don't always stay around, and that's okay. It's okay for you to move away. You aren't obligated to any friendship or relationship. Just do what feels right for you and follow that. Don't look back. Go out and experience, talk to more people, and gain more perspective. Im sure you've done a lot of that now, that was something you've prioritized so much. You're a beautiful person Jaina. I hope you'll find people or someone who can see the same beauty in you as you did for other people. I hope whatever we decided to do, you're happy and proud of yourself. Things will turn out.