A letter from Jan 13, 2023

Dear you, You are a junior in high school at the moment. Life is silly and sometimes you're sad. You are scared of the future and aren’t crazy about this assignment because you are scared of who you'll be when you receive this letter, scared you'll be a disappointment. Anyway, I really love you and I hope you are well. Right now I just failed a math test, like for real. Like I got a 47, but I know that in the end it will be ok because I will turn out to be you. Hopefully you’re not too bad. I've been trying to think when would be a good time to send this, but I can't really decide. I don't want to send it too early but I don't want to send it too late. If I send it when I graduate that's just way too soon, which scares the living poo poo out of me. If I send it in five years I’m scared it will be too late for this small bit of motivation to help. So I'm thinking about going with 3. 3 years from now, ew. Where will I be? I guess this is what I hope. I hope to have music out and to have a few listeners. I know that takes time so I’m not saying like a million trillion famous level listeners, but I want to know that I’m confident enough to put my music out, to let it be heard. I kind of hope to be in a relationship. Wait, how old will I be…I guess around 20. Yeah, I mean I don’t think I want to get married or anything, but I guess I would like to have a good guy to love and to be loved by. You know that’s a dream of ours. So yes music out, relationship, what else…Um I guess I’d like to know what I want to do if I don’t make it as a musician. I pray that I’ll have found another thing I’m super passionate about that is a little more attainable. But I feel like saying things like that sets me up for failure. Like if I say “if I don’t make it” won’t that just make it come true. I am going to make it. Maybe I won’t be the next taylor, but I will be someone. I will be us. I hope that you’re even funnier now (if that’s even possible). Anywho, I don’t really know what more to say. Well I just thought of this, but I guess I didn’t think of it sooner because in my heart I don’t really want to say I hope this about you. I want to know this for certain. I know that you will still be a God fearing christian. Because right now he’s all you got, so maybe when you get the boyfriend and the fame you’ll think about leaving him behind, but I want you to remember that he never left you. Right now and I believe always, that he will be there for you. He will be your closest and most loving friend. In all honesty I kind of think the world is going to end before I get this letter. Sometimes I hope it does and sometimes I don't. Because I want to get that chance to try, but at the same time it would be so much easier if I could just get taken up and get to live in heaven for eternity. But life isn’t easy and I’ll probably still be around when this letter gets sent. But I digress, all I'm saying is you need him now and I know you’ll need him then. I think this is probably the last paragraph. I hope Alex is doing well. In all honesty I hope he IS married to the love of his life. I hope he is graduating law school and ready to take on the rest of his life. And if he is not graduating law school I hope he is still doing something he loves, with someone he loves. Behind God he is my best friend and I wish nothing but amazingness for my brother. I love you Alex and I hope that you and him still have a really good relationship. If you haven’t talk to him in a while this can be your reminder to talk to him for a little while. All this talk of best friends reminds me of Marie. Whom I can’t forget. My best friend Marie Boudreaux. I hope she is well. Better than well. I hope we are still close. Because I don’t know what I’d do without her. Let this be a reminder to tell her how much you love her and thank her for being your bestie because so many people aren’t blessed with a friend who truly loves and understands them, but somehow I found her. I think I’m done now. I love you and can’t wait to meet you. Sincerely, you