A letter from January 12th, 2023

Hey stranger, At the present moment in time, I am so lost. Lost, confused, frustrated…all of it really. I’ve been losing my mind over the whole what am I going to do with my life question. What will I major in? Will it be worth it? Will I be able to support myself financially? Can I be financially stable and also doing something that I enjoy? I’ve been asking all these questions and it’s so frustrating. Currently I’ve decided on majoring in English. That’s for a few different reasons but I won’t go into it right now. After I get my degree in English I hope to use it mostly as a backup. I told myself that I want to travel and see the world and just be happy and I’ll be okay working on jobs to get that. Bartending and waitressing could be a good way to make money fast for trips. The English degree would come in if I wanted to teach abroad since most require a bachelors degree in something. Also if later I decided I wanted to get my masters there are a few different options there as well. So getting an English degree seems good to me. It’s something I enjoy, something I can use to achieve the life that I want and something I can always use to go back to school and change my career. I do hope it’s enough though. I could’ve chose something that would for certain make me a lot of money but I knew I’d be miserable. I don’t want to live solely to survive. I want to enjoy the life that I have, as long or as short as it may be. When my time comes, I want to look back and be proud of the life that I lived. So I really do hope that I’ll get there. Also it’d be cool if I did music on the side or something.