A letter from Jan 10, 2023

Dear Future Y, I hope you forgot about this letter because that means I am successful in surprising you. We started 3 years ago, at 17, this beautiful journey; two kids at school who found their home in each other's arms. I am a writer, so forgive me for writing so passionately, because when it comes to you my love, I cannot stop the flow of my words. Like restless rivers, they flow to meet your ocean. Today is the 10th of January, 2023, and I miss you. There are days of acceptance and days of denial, wherein I wish there weren't 7,577 miles between us. It's been four months since you went abroad for studies and four months since I held your hand and touched your cheek. Or played with your hair and drew circles on your skin. I miss you when I see a pretty sunset, when I hear a funny joke, when I see people playing football and when I find a film I love. But I am holding up, for you, for us, for our future. Once we finish our studies and become successful enough to be worthy of each other, I know we will spend each night in each other's embrace and each morning with each other's voice. I am eagerly awaiting that day. I hope you are too. I hope a lot of things as I write this letter. I hope we stay as mad in love as we do now. I hope we understand, respect and treasure each other. I hope that every argument we have after I write this letter ends with an 'I love you'. I hope I get a little less stubborn and allow video calls more often, so we can see each other. I hope you don't scratch your new I-phone. I hope my applications to NID and IDC get selected. I hope you still call me your Lil princess. I hope I still call you my pretty prince. I really want us to work. I know we will. But... but if we don't...and you read this letter, I am sorry, for everything I said and didn't. If we aren't together anymore, please tell me you tried, we tried, right? I can't bear to lose us, my love. And if we made it, if we're still going strong...I'm so proud of us. Of you. Of the past we spent together, of the future we will continue together. In the truest sense, you are my universe. You are the only man I will ever love. And I hope it is the same for you. Yours 💗.