A letter from Jan 09, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hello future me! if you are wondering how did this got in your email (or possibly the email got abandoned lol) I'm writing a letter for you from Jan 09, 2023. You're probably graduating from senior high? or maybe currently choosing where to school at? or maybe I'm already dead LOL. Anyway, how is life? I hope things are working out well for you. I want you to have a blissful life and a bright future, I want you to achieve all the great things that you've fantasized while pooping in the CR. I want you to be perfectly healthy and productive at the same time. I want you to become someone I wish to be. I hope this wouldn't be too hard for you to be successful with. Even if you aren't feeling great right now, or in possible grief.. I want you to know that I'm cheering for you and supporting you as your past self. And everything will be okay. Making mistakes are okay. Even if you got into a major fight with your bestfriend, or perhaps with your lover. Mistakes doesn't define you, but learning from it will. So I hope that my future self right now, Is someone that will certainly listen to her past self. Even so, if you're thinking you aren't in the right path, or maybe not in your right mind. I want you to know that it's okay!! Get up and make yourself someone worthy and someone to be proud of. I need you to know that your past self is making decisions that will lead into that future, in this current future time. And that I'm relying to you right now. I want to be everything that I am currently wishing in this moment. Playing electric guitar, painting oil canvases that my family will be proud of, being productive at school, or maybe going to school at CPU !! (current dream school). I have no honestly clue with what's going on your life. I want to know how's my mamang doing, Is she healthy? is she sick? I want to know if you have a new dog, if you do name them serene or arche. The name came from Hana (your ex). I knowwww. I still haven't moved on from her, but I'm slowly healing and accepting the fact that we aren't together anymore. I still love her and I'm going to acknowledge my feelings rather than ignoring it, why? because it's the best way to heal. She's very happy with someone from her school, and I'm happy by only the reality with it. She was someone I loved dearly, without any complexities or pride. But you know, I left her because I wasn't treated well. I hope that me in the future, has healed from the trauma of relationships! I want to know if you're in a relationship right now tho.. WLW? or maybe you like a boy? have you gotten your first kiss yet? or maybe have you made out with anyone yet... have you come out from the closet to mama? if so, did she accepted you? If you did, I hope it went well. Are you in love right now? are you broken hearted? did you got rejected? If you're in love, Please. Keep that person from the rest of your life. I want you to be bliss with loving people around you. Especially that person. I want to know why you fell in love with that person, or how you came to be attracted with them, or your first impression with them, or maybe how you realize you were in love with them. I want to know how much you love them. But! If you can't love yourself, or maintain stability, don't go in yet!! it's dangerous. I want you to love them wholeheartedly and giving your best to make them feel loved. Ghosting and ignoring them won't do, your past self would be so mad at you. I also want to know if it's LDR or personal, If its LDR I hope you two meet, and stay in love. If you got your heart broken, I guarantee you, you will heal from it. I have no idea what cause your heart to be broken, but I'm sure you did your best loving that certain someone. I know we are both romantic and sweet, I'm pretty sure you did the best you could ever give. So don't cry, or grieve. We will both heal from it. It will past, and time will help you heal. If you got rejected, it's totally okay. They weren't just the person for you. Or maybe the time wasn't ready for the both of you. Who knows they also like you but rejected you due to circumstances? you'll never know right? that's why it's okay. It's okay to be rejected. I want to know if your appearance changed after years.. Did we got taller? changed your hair color? got a tattoo? or maybe a piercing? did our teeth got better? no matter how funky your fashion sense or hair color is, as long as we are confident I don't think other people thoughts matter!! especially boomers ugh. We are pretty and cute, both past and future. If you feel insecure, go to art galleries. If you feel insecure with your body, remember to fitness and diet healthy! I don't want us to be starved because we body shame ourselves. Eat all food you crave. I want you to know that I'm so proud of you. I also want to know how are you and my current friends? panyagahan and ONHS friends? are you still good terms with them? did something happened that made you fight with them? misunderstandings? I want to know. Because right now, they're the most precious people I have in my life. If I was the one in fault, I want us to be mature minded in times like that. I want us to lower our prides when it comes to immaturities and complexities. Because I know that the both of us doesn't want to lose them. Have you reunited with our elementary classmates? are you all in good terms? I hope you all still do. I also want to know.. if you still remember and think of our baby Athanasia Soleil Agustin. Your child with your ex. I want Baby Athy to be remembered. Her birthday is on August 16, 2022. The day I dreamt about her :D. It was my first encounter with Athy was cute. She was the sunshine of our days. I hope we will both have Athy in the further future. Is your dream still pointed at being an architect? or did you changed your mind? If we decided to become something different, I know that It'll be the right decision we can ever think. And I want us to be lead by our hearts, not mind. I want us to do what we are passionate with. Anyway. That's all future self. I am so so so proud of you with what you have become now. Your past self will remain cheering you on, and as a part of your self. Love your family, love your friends. Love everyone that loves you. And I want you to know that you aren't alone. And that I will always remain in your heart. I love you. And I'm very proud of you. From, - Past Casey.