A letter from Jan 08, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I'm really scared older me, I feel like everything is going to change. I mean it's been different and difficult, from Sammy's ***** to our parents weird relationship. I'm not even sure what to say after all a what I hope is a very different version of me will be reading this. Are you happier or is there no hope?. do we still hide from close relationships. You should know I, we really want to love someone one day and although 3 years is a long time it's doesn't seem like enough time for finding that person. It's childish no matter how serious everything around me is I can't help but fantasies about the future. For the longest time, or at least what I felt was a long time I was in high-school being as miserable as can be, blaming it for holding me back. Now that I'm a senior in high-school I can't help but feel doubtful I want someone to vent to, but if I'm being honest I've never been truly honest with anyone. I hope that changes one day maybe one day we will find that person. Also this is a reminder to stay focused on your goals; no getting attached to losers in merced, have fun, no pregnancy plz no no no pllz I AM PRAYING I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU ****** IT UP... I'm sorry it's just well we like girls more anyways and r how old are we anyways 20?, see no time for going loopy. Btw are we in Washington yet I doubt it, not that I doubt you don't worry I know that we are strong!!. it's y'know we probably still working towards it right. No need to go it's dangerous waters blindly we're still trying to be a tatoo artist right!!. This was supposed to be sincere and kind but I guess understanding that you are 20 right now I'm sure you don't wish to read about how miserable I feel.