A letter from Jan 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, this is a long one. I know you're busy making money and tending to your family but find at least an hour to read this. you'll thank yourself later. It's the start of 2023, I'm currently on a spiritual journey. I hope you truly remember the event in December where you had an epiphany, because right now January fifth, 2023, that's what's currently fueling your spiritual journey. That and my fiancée, who I already consider my wife. We are married, I know we are! I know she's made the move from Australia to the U.S. I really need you to focus and not to lose sight of what she means to you. Quick recap, we met in February of 2022. In a discord server (RUSS) of all places, I'm currently in the U.S and she's currently in Australia. Our love story started March 9th of 2022 with a "hey Papas" after I sent my number into another discord server, we were both in. J had an energy to her and from the start I truly resonated towards her matched that energy back. For the longest time I Asked for someone or something genuine, the universe heard me and sent me J. Fast forward to October, and she lands in my city (SLC) for a Vegas trip we had planned. We went to Vegas first time ever seeing each other, first time sharing a living space together, first time we had kissed, first time we showered together, and the first time we made love. For those of you reading this who don't understand what love making is, its ***. the first time we had ***. An absolute euphoric experience, the binding of souls... the love, the lust, the trust. Absolutely everything you could imagine when coming together with your person, your twin flame, your best friend. On October 29th, we celebrated her birthday and ENGAGEMENT because I PROPOSED! **** yea dude, you did it! (For dale #3) <- I hope you're still this ******* hilarious when you're 27 fast forward to January fifth of 2023, and were celebrating Christmas on face time, new years on face time, cooking on face time and continuing to grow as a unit through face time, we have face timed every day for the last 10 months nonstop we eat sleep and breathe face time. I absolutely love it; it's my norm and I hope I never get tired of it. You have three years my boy, from today to when you receive this email asking or hoping the things you asked and things you hoped for came true. Let's start with NEVER EVER GETTING COMFORTABLE, just don't. It's not a thought or a twinkle in your little eye bud, I refuse to get comfy it's not an option for you not now and not in three years. check yourself. IF you have gotten comfortable this is a wakeup, call and you're absolutely not disciplining yourself enough and you're gross, 2023 me is disgusted in 2026 you. IF you haven't gotten comfortable, you're the absolute ******* man way to go my boy proud of you, ignore everything said before hopefully that message to yourself motivated you enough or traumatized you. I hope you sold your soul for a little bit to apply for the K-1 visa and all the paperwork and fees associated with it. For the apartment she's going to call home and for the house you'll build and raise your family in. J is making a huge sacrifice and leaving everything she loves and knows behind to come kick it with you for life. It's the least you can do for her my guy and for your future. You know what she's worth, give her the world. I hope you got your **** together and started loving her the way she wants to be loved her way, not yours. That clearly wasn't working out for you or her, I hope you really got your **** together man. I'm talking about credit fixed or at a decent/good score, your spiritual journey is still going on and stronger than ever. More than anything I want and need my soul to match hers and be in the same astroplane. I hope the Black Love is there, worshiping her and tending to her needs. Whatever it is wherever it is, J deserves it all. I hope you fill her cup my G bathe her, foot rubs, back rubs, dinners, dates, the endless kisses and hugs, everything you in vision a healthy black love is like. The unconditional love, the constant reassurance she deserves and needs. Again, she is worth it all and deserves it all. You asked for her, she was delivered to you, now... TAKE CARE OF HER. I really hope Insha'Allah yall had a baby, preferably a girl but if a boy comes along, we will feel blessed and be super thankful to the universe and Allah. I hope the family you have now is strong bonded and very healthy. I really hope yall found some people you love and trust enough for you to choose them as godparents for your kids. I also really hope you picked out good names and our kids aren't bullied in school because of the names chosen for them. I hope you're a great father and husband to your family. I hope you're the strength they need, I hope you're the role model they look up to. I hope my kids see how I love, worship, and treat my wife J. I hope I set a great example for them. DON'T be a dickhead, stay focused and tunnel visioned on J and your goals, your dreams, and your future. **** your ugly nasty habits! I really hope for your sake and J's sanity you met her in the idle and fixed your communication style. It's not working out now, I know for a fact it definitely won't work three years from now. I hope J stayed a priority and that you stayed loving her more than anything else in your life. I hope you stopped being selfish and started putting her first. Words can only explain so much. Your actions will dictate the rest. Get J something nice. whatever it is it has to be nice, no cutting corners or taking shortcuts it's got to be the best because again she deserves the best! No Slacking. Because of me we have encountered some roadblocks and instability, due to my lack of awareness and care. Make a promise to yourself that you'll always put on the best version of yourself, always show up, never check out and always always always remember to be and accept yourself no matter what even the ugly parts of you, the ones you want to be dead. They make you who you are, but they don't define you as a person, you're a gentle soul bro but you're also a ******* G. Well Chris... this is it, the end of this email to yourself. All I can do now here in 2023 is wish you the best of luck and I hope you accomplish everything mentioned and stay in love never forget what she means to you and who she is to you Promise yourself you won't fail her and your babies. Stay Black don't let your body take over your soul. Continue your spiritual journey become who you're truly meant to be. I love you big dawg. GET ER DONE! P.S HOW THE **** WAS AUSTRALIA MATE! Was everything you hoped for and promised yourself accomplished? Did you stay disciplined? Get back to me in 3 years and let 23-year-old me know he can't wait.