A letter from Jan 05, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Today is January 5th 2023. 1:19am as I’m writing this and it’s a Thursday. I am in bed and my room is quite a mess and I’m planning on sleeping soon, I’m 15 but I turn 16 on April 7th. Not much happened today but I did go for a walk before midnight, I was listening to music and before I got home, I was listening to ‘Still life’ by namjoon and anderson paak. I like BTS, I don’t keep up with every updates or scream and squeal but i do enjoy them. I avoid listening to some songs by them because I tell myself I’m not mentally prepared, which is quite funny but I seriously cannot handle it or I’ll be sad for a long time 😭 anyways, My biases now are Kim namjoon (RM) and Kim seokjin (JIN). Right now, seokjin is in military. He released ’The astronaut’ for army as a little goodbye since he’s leaving for awhile :( I also kinda made it a tradition to eat chicken Alfredo and listen to The astronaut😭😭. Today something happened to namjoon, he went to a temple and met with a monk and shared some personal things. It didn’t turn out well since the monk released an article about it and you were pretty upset, i was pretty upset. We cried a little bit today, we finished season 2 of Alice in borderland and drank tea. We really love tea, we also have a few online friends. Isaac, justice, and a few other people, let’s see if you can remember because I don’t want to name all of them🫣. I wanna change, i hope we change, i hope we make it far. I’m sorry if you see this and you’re not really anywhere. I feel like this won’t make it to me in 3 years, it just doesn’t sound believable. I hope i stay with bts, i also hope we stick with a few people from stan twt haha. And kookie, our dog. Is she still alive? I kinda don’t believe so since she got ran over’d like 2 or 3 times already😭 I have high expectations for you, let’s create a passion for something and make a career out of it, i don’t want to be stuck and die in the rez forever, i want to live life and be happy. Please protect mom and dad too. I cannot live without the both of them even if dad seems to be a lot sometimes. Also I know we might not be our ideal weight by then, I’m gaining weight as it is and as much as I don’t like that, it’s okay if we’re a little b it chubby, don’t be sad about it🫂 please mature into a good person and don’t let hatred blur your mind and actions, I know how we can be sometimes. Please just try, try for me, your inner child. I have high expectations and I want the older you to achieve it. That’s all I ask. And don’t leave bts, we’re in this bangtan **** for life, got it? I love hobi sm he’s so cute, I also love yoongi oml😞 anyways, love you! Don’t be so hard on yourself but pls, don’t be a drunk and don’t do drugs I BEG 😭