A letter from Jan 04, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hey i’m so high right now i love it so much the feeling is so euphoric or wtv anyways if you’ve read my diary a lot has happened since my last letter in 2020 lmao. um so the whole luis thing rn we’re not talking and hopefully it stays like that i need to stop going back to him. he doesn’t want me as much as i want him. anywyas i’m going to italy february 11-19 cuz i won that scholarship thingy w krista 😋 idek what to write um hmmm im 107lbs. rn i gained like 10 pounds bc i’ve been lazy so now i gotta get back on the grind yk anyways um im severely and chronically insecure irs. so bad rn like i cant stand to look at myself how can i still be this ugly getting skinny is nice but i i still have a pudge that can’t get rid of bc it’s actually js my uterus lmao but i hate it sm so i still feel fat and flabby and my face omg pls i hate it most of the time i look like a man with and without makeup like i js rádiate troll. um i hope you’ve found a gf/bf by now and that ur in a happy and healthy relationship w them also hope ur not a complete ******* failure rn. u better get into college and make bank. i need to get a vape cuz i love smoking cakes but i wanna keep taking pullls for the smoke but at sum point ima green out if i do that so a vape would be nice so i could smoke it while high yea i can hear my eyelashes fluttering and i feel like i have no arms holy shut my hands are moving with no arm like typing. i’m so lonely pls i js wanna move on from luis and focus on myself it’s so hard rn i js get high and forget ab him rn but after that im thibking ab him 24/7. hope ur starting off the new yr happy and successful and pretty . stressed making super late christmas presents for laylah alma rima and deb 😭 um im learning how to drive and it’s scary but i’m getting more confident in it and i’m a pretty good driver. so yea meow bye bye