A letter from Jan 02, 2023

Dear FutureMe, Hi, I was just doing some wrighting when I got my monthly reminder to say hi! so I thought this time I would show you what your favorite thing you wrote was back when you were 14 Chapter Name: The end of an Era. And this is where my story ends. I thought about this moment a million times in my head. How it would go, how people would react. And then I realized, I'll never know. I'll never know what happens after this. Once I put this *** to my head, once I pulled this trigger. That will be the end. I will fall off this cliff and everything will be over. This is where my circle closes. I thought I was ready but sitting up there on this rock looking over at the 1,000-plus drop I see in front of me, I didn't know if I was. I just needed to take one more second, with the wind blowing in my hair the birds chirping as the sun goes down over the mountains smell of cold drifting through the air, and yet I still felt warm. I didn't know if I could really go through with it. There are plenty of things in this world to live for, but there are plenty to die for. I stood up hair still blowing in the breeze, put the *** to my head, and pull the trigger. I felt weightless for a second like there was nothing left. I didn't feel pain like I thought I would, I felt relief. My body fell down the cliff all my weight was being lifted off of me I was so happy and yet so sad at the same time. Tears ran down my face and I couldn't decide if they were happy tears or sad ones. My circle closed the loop ended. The bad thing was that I didn't know if I would do it again. If I could travel back in time just a few minutes, would I pull that trigger again? I couldn't confidently say yes but I couldn't confidently say no. So if you ask me if it was worth it, I couldn't tell you. I didn't live to see all the things that could have happened. I don't know if they were where my store could have gone. All I know is that I never experience them. At the beginning of the story, I told you someone ****** me, now you understand that someone... was me. Ya ik its a bit Dark and ****, but then again you wrote it sooooo Love ya, Past you