A letter from Jan 01, 2023

Dear FutureMe, It's january 2 2023. Few things have had happen. 2022 lalo na yung first half was the worse simula nung nawala si mama. i still miss her so much and i dont think yung feeling na yun eh mawawala pa. lalo na nung new years eve. for the first time nag karon ulit ng sinturon ni hudas and syempre una ko naalala eh si mama. kasi nung maliit pa ko takot ako dun talaga and si mama talaga tinatakbuhan ko pag sisindihan na yon. sabi ko nung bata ako ayoko ng new year kasi napaka ingay and it turned out habang tumatanda ako, patahimik na din ng patahimik ang new. pangarap ko kaya to? yung maingay for 30 mins tapos tahimik na ulit. siguro ang na mimiss ko hindi naman talaga yung ingay kundi yung feeling of warmth of christmas and new year. siguro nga sa mga bata lang talaga ang holidays. it's just another day na walang pasok sa work as an adult working. i had my nose job as well nung december 9! it was so huge after the cast fell off hahaha pero i like it so much now. my confidence level 📈📈📈 lalong tumaas i mean ceiling na, pero dahil din don, i need to be reminded always na keep my expectation just right and makatotohanan. made me humble too na im not all that, afterall, it's just nose job. im still thinking of getting chin augmentation too because my doctor suggested na wag na daw, no need na daw. so that day hindi nya na ginawa. so in connection to that, i also had my first movie date??? not really a date but more like friendly hangout lang but girl, it was mg first time. he's taller than me but i think yun na yon. he was nice and ayun lang... it was a normal experince, nothing special. pero because of that, gusto ko na mag explore lalo. into dating scene? idk. siguro kung san lang ako dalhin ng curiosity ko. ive also purchased and shop a lot nung december so goodluck sa credit card bill ko next week. yun lang muna self 💗