A letter from Dec 25, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hey im currently typing this sitting down in my bed as a candle is lit up in my dark room as I smell the cinnamon scent but also thinking about everything that has fully gone on this year wither it’s starting new things or loosing friends too stupid situations but it’s the fact I’ve made it this far and it’s almost 2023 even if it’s starting without those I’ve meant along the way of 2022 but I would love too give an update of everything that has happened so let’s start off at 8th grade where I meant so many people who really got me thru that time like Victor,ricky,sam,Amanda,Sofia,Nancy which where one of my mains but I sadly lost most of them do too stupid **** but one person I would give the world too if I could is Amanda she is literally the only person who will stick around for however long I can imagine and makes me laugh till I’m dying even in 8th grade we would laugh in the gym floor about stupid **** like that wattpad fanfic I made about the sunset mannequin that had no head and the way we would just talk about crushes and family things it was just so good she understood me so well and I wasn’t ever afraid too tell her if something happended in my family and I really care so much for her and another person is sammy she was the only person who ever got me like really me the way I could just be myself with her and she just understood me so well and just made me feel so loved in ways I could never express into words she just made me feel like she knew me and the things I like and people and how I got in certain situations or she would let me lay my head down on her anytime I got tired and let me borrow her brush when my hair was messy or she would brush it out herself she is someone I love and can only say good things about even tho we may have our moments like arguments they never last long cause all that matters is keeping her by me and never letting her go no matter what but the thing that really got me was switching schools cause I felt like she would just move on and make friends and forget me and we would stop talking and hanging out and it would be diffrent and I would just walk pass her at family party’s but I hope that never happens cause she’s someone I need and now for those who I needed at a certain time of this year who weren’t meant too last long enough for the rest is Nancy and Nancy was just someone I clicked so well with its like she was so clickable like It was just perfect but we soon got distant after the whole esme situation but I wish I could’ve lasted longer but it’s not was intended but I’m glad I meant her during that time of my life which was when I was really low but someone else I meant was Victor and he was sams Ex and I hated him cause he was a ***** but then one day he responded too my story and we started talking and he was just so good at that time it’s like he was the only guy I ever truly liked and he made me feel a certain way I cant explain but he also liked me at that time but me and him had our ups and downs and I forgave him everytime cause I kinda saw myself in him like he was me but I’m glad he isn’t cause he just wasn’t for me and I lost him too getting into a talking stage with him and he stopped talking too me after we ended that and I got with Ricky 4 days later and he got mad and said I was getting passed around and that I was just using ricky and I really just liked him so we never talked after that but now for ricky omg he was just someone I just thought only good of he was just so good like perfect too me and so sweet and just I can’t but I meet him thru Victor and he liked me in 7th grade and then also 8th grade and he didn’t know at the time I kinda liked him in 8th grade too when he told me ab that but I didn’t wanna tell him cause I didn’t want him too be like what if this and just that type of stuff but I always thought how he was someone I really wanted too be with like I needed too date him but I was going too Mountain View and he was going too sunset but soon after I moved too sunset and I still liked him and after all that Victor stuff I told him and he liked me too so we started dating and it was just so perfect he was the best but it ended and I’m currently blocked for stalking his mom Instagram and Facebook and we don’t ever talk in person anymore so those where some people I lost that really ****** with me but someone who I’m not so close too but knew for a long time is Sofia and shes just so perfect and I love her so much she just is everything and I don’t have anything bad too say about her cause she means so much too me and she doesn’t even know but now for some people I’ve recently meant which is jasmine,Victor,aaron they are my gym group and there perfect it’s a mix of everything and I truly wouldn’t get thru a days without them and that means so much too me and someone who I got closer that I wouldve Never Imagine is Joseph and I’m glad I did cause he’s sweet but honest and he’s someone I go too when things get hard and he goes too me when things get hard i will always love the calls we have and also someone I also just truly love and get so much is Sariah and shes the best and perfect and she also gets me so well and it feels like she’s someone I really needed in my life which is also with everyone else but someone who really gets me thru b days is Denise and she’s just so good like I be telling her everything and we be talking **** together and I be laughing so hard with her and it’s just something I need at times but I’ve gone thru so much this year especially since now that it’s ending its falling apart but I know it might be what was needed and maybe they were just meant too stay for that time but I hope for things too go well and btw is Jocelyn still with Robert and who has left me again and who did I meet