A letter from Dec 25, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Its 25 december 2022 .... if your still alive .. how did you do it ? When im writing this i feel like **** ... you remamber ... I hope you got better and happier ... cuz now (then) i wasn't I so close to ending it ... im sory if i didn't make it ... Everything hurts .... It gets worse and worse at this moment What is wrong with me .... i have no one ... i hope this ends well for us ... me I'm forcing myself not to cry as i write this Im sorry future me .... im sorry