A letter from Dec 13, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey T! How's your slow walk? We finally meet today. In case you forget the one who wrote this is a 19 yrs old (barely a woman yet) sitting at her study table and writing this letter instead of reviewing for her finals this 10:00 am. She sacrifices her finals just to talk to you "how sweet" is she! Where are you now? Are you still sitting at your study table? Please tell me "no" ugh I hate you if you're still hanging out with the little dino that you find in the box of toys. (Wish I can attached dino picture here but I'm broke lol). I think you're working now but if you're struggling at work and wanted to do something else this letter will serve as a sign for you to resign. Leave your toxic environment *****. I didn't work hard just for you to be a scaredy-cat and settle for things that ***** you. I hope you became the woman you wanted to be and don't mind people's opinions of you. Wear the dress you want and love everything you want to love. I wasted a lot of time pleasing people so now it's your time to don't give a **** abt them. We're not a fixer. You don't need to react to everything. Say "no" to things that you don't want and sleep if you're tired. We don't owe someone our life. You deserve peace and I deserve apologies for treating myself like this. Pls, heal me. Heal your inner child. I need your love. (Treat me ice cream, okay! I promise to enjoy it and if you're wondering where I'd go, just close your eyes and you'll see me there raising my middle finger and smiling at you) Lastly, are you in a relationship? OH MY GHADD! (I'm overreacting haha) Who's the lucky *******? I'm shocked that someone settle for you and I'm more amazed that you settle for someone. I mean we're too precious and wild to be tied up. Relationship is not for me but maybe it's for you. And, if you're still single. Omo, you're so hopeless! I knew it. I can feel it in my bones. Let's just buy books and dress instead. I know you'll graduate in Psychology but I hope you don't apply it to life that much. I know it sounds absurd but understanding people's behavior and giving too much empathy will constantly destroy you. We're too soft for this! I'm sorry for everything. I did the best I could to survive and loving you was my last priority. I'm just a child and life throws a fit already. I'm still too young and I don't know what to do. I manage to get through day by day and that is important right now but I hope things changes now. I hope you prioritize yourself. I hope you love yourself. I hope you became the better version of me. I love you so much. Take care, T! Please send me a letter too.