A letter from Nov 21, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I am writing this so you can never forget who we are. Right now we are eight days away from turning 17. How are we feeling? Do we still blame ourselves for every single little thing? Did we finally figure our own body out? This will be sent in 3 years from now, when we are 19, being eight days away from turning 20... That is scary, how do you feel about that? I am scared of how things will turn out, did we manage to go to LLB or Psychology? Did we pick a complete different path? Whatever it is we chose, please remember we are completely capable of doing it... If we maintain our things tidy we have even higher chances. I hope you're not as passive as I am right now, I hope we changed and have a better personality as well. I won't remind you of anything bad, because I hope we will be completely healed from many things in three years. Here are even more questions; Do we have someone we love? Are we independent? Are we clean? Do you still talk to our friends (Ann, Evie, Toni, Peter and everyone else)? Do we have a better self-esteem? Do we still wanna be a model? DO WE HAVE A CAT OR A DOG? Do we still think about Ana? How is she btw? Whatever the answers are, I hope we are happy. I will have a serious talk with you now, I am working hard to make us a good person, someone who is less insufferable and more educated. I've been lifting myself for 6 years so we could be good, educated and live a comfortable life. If you're in a relationship where you're doubting yourself and feel sad, you better leave the piece of **** that makes you feel like that... If WE are the piece of ****, talk to your therapist sua burra do cacete. BE A GOOD EXAMPLE TO OUR SIBLINGS. IF YOU'RE NOT TALKING TO MOM AND DAD GO BACK. Make sure to remind everyone how much we love them, please. Need a break? Take a break. I hope we are at least in college and you didn't give up. Don't let people judge you, I know anxiety can be ****** up and make us lose our ****, but don't let them **** you. If you haven't told them about the rape, you should. I won't be free until you tell. Also, are we in terms with grandma's *****? Do we have her shrine? I am begging you, be nicer to yourself and take care of us. It's ok if we need a break, if we need to shrink for a while. Allow us to heal, I love us and I'm excited to see what we will become. Don't cut yourself ever again, because I did and you will have to carry a scar that wasn't your fault. The one that knows you the best, Me/Us. ALSO, write to our future us.