A letter from Nov 20, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hey. it's been 7months & less than 2 weeks since he left. you're not okay, but atleast better than what u are months ago. you keep on thinking and reminiscing. everything remind you of him, he's everywhere—when in reality, he's not. we miss him so much. it's so dang hard to live a day without him. there's a lot of what ifs and regrets, words that left unsaid. we don't even have any idea if magkakaroon ng chance na masasabi ko lahat. every day, every night, I'm always wondering if he ever think abt me..as much as I do. may iba na kaya? ako pa rin ba? hm that's what I want for him, right? to be happy, to be happy even with someone else, even if it's not with me. all I want is for him to be happy, genuinely happy.