A letter from Nov 18, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I'm not sure where you'll see yourself, Hopefully, you'll be alive and hopefully, you'll actually find someone. I'm not sure what you want me to say besides the stuff you have heard before that everything is going to get better or life is going to get better, but it really isn't, I know you have gone through a lot but no more lies... I want you to find someone that actually cares FOR YOU and that actually isn't going to ******* baby themselves, you need a better person in the world. Others acted as if they care for you and that they respect you but they don't so you have to be a lot stronger than they are as well as yourself. I'm not sure what to write to you, I feel like you should focus on yourself. You deserve better than a father that couldn't love you as well as a father who kept hurting you. You need the best thing in life and you lost that when they left you. You need to respect yourself more than respect others, right now in your life. I know it's hard and things in your life are going down right now, but that's ok Sarah, That's just fine, you deserve so much happiness and kindness. I know that won't mean a lot but just know that you deserve to be treated right. you aren't going to break unless others force you to do it. I know deep down inside that you are a strong girl, so thank you for putting us through the worse time in our lives, when our father was here and when Ryan was here, that was the worse thing that anyone could go through and you put us through the worst times, and now it either could get worse or better. I want you to know that if you have kids they are going to have the best mother in the world, and if the tiger is alive love her with all your heart, and don't cry when she goes. You need to love yourself and your cat, and that is the best thing in your life, So thank you for making us go through the worst thing so far in your life, we don't have to do it again.