A letter from Nov 17, 2022

Dear FutureMe, At the moment which I write to you, we just lost our dad and it's ******* hard. We're not even 30, and it just sucks. Hope that my future me could write to my Me at the moment and reassure her. Everything is hard. Never cried so much in my hole life. Everywhere. On a bench during lunch break, in the tram, on my bike, at work, walking through the city, when i listen to music. Everything makes me think of you. Every little thing is a mnemonic o you. It's like stalking someone that can't be. Every emotion felt ist tainted with this deep sadness. Like when you have something in a dish, that tops every other flavour because it is that intense. It is sometime another recipe : add Joy to Sadness (...) add Sadness to Sadness I hope that three years from now, you had the time to grieve, to remember dad, to see him in you because he is a part of you. That because of that, you'll have the feeling that nothing can happen to you as he gave you. I hope that today, your adding something else in the recipe, and hopefully it goes like Add Joy to Joy ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNsJ5v04E5U&ab_channel=TajdarJunaid