A letter from Nov 15, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Learning to adapt to new families may be a struggle. Learning to understand adjustment can be hard. Learning to trust is one thing I will never learn, but to love and help the ones that are hurt is my move everyday. Saying the word love to anyone can turn to hatred with seconds. Losing friends from suicide can tear a piece of your heart and scar for life. Including yourself to every event shows me I am there to do something new, but learning new things from your parents may change who you are. Art helps release my anxiety and trauma from the past. Drawing the people I care for tells me they were there every day. Everyday I build anger when someone says " **** themselves". I want to help, but I'm too scared to be turned down from the person in pain. I want to do a lot of things that have yet not touched my hand yet. Being a part of a family who is selfish and mean. Being the one keeping my family alive. Having a mother who spends her money on drugs. I was always gone, never home. I was too scared to walk in the filth my siblings accumulated. I was to scared to be home and blamed for someones mistakes. I am glad I am out of that home. My dream to be a service trainer for dogs and train large breeds for the ones who fight for our country. With 5 years of experience of training and no certification for official trainer. Hope to accomplish my goals and my life. I want to live to see my kids grow older and do better things. I do not want to be like my mom, I want to be who I am.