A letter from Nov 08, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I like a guy, and it's his birthday, today (if you are reading this right now on january 28). He's also an aquarius. Moody. Bossy. Smarty. Good hearted guy. Has a good GMRC. He knows how to pray (a little) and I like his eyes very much. I fall so hard when I see him laughing. It's so surreal that I can't look him when he laughs. Though, it sounds crazy because he isn't even on Henry Cavill's **** level 'level', he's even feminine and has a bunch of girl friends. He's also a user friend, he befriends smart girls when examination is approaching. I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN LIKE HIM! I JUST CAN'T MOVE ON. He's driving me crazy. I just want to hug him. Ughhh. And I don't have a plan to confess to him because we're friends and I am happy and content with it. If I confess, two possible scenarios would happen: One, if I confess, then he likes me, then we're on the mutual-understanding stage and by the end of the year or along the way he fell out of like to me and found someone new and we're not friends anymore! Something will change between us which is I don't like it to happen. And second, if I confess, then he doesn't like me, then I would be awkward around him and he'll gonna tease me that I like him! But how would I know that he likes me too? He's giving me such mixed signals. As I've said, he's feminine, he treats his girl friends the way he treats me also. I don't know, I can't explain it. Ughh. Future me, I know you would be on college soon, and I know if you guys make it. I want to know if he' s still your classmate and your friend. And I want to know if you are going to Norway or Canada.