A letter from Oct 31, 2022

Dear Pey, Sa mga oras na binabasa mo ‘to, sana buhay ka pa ‘no? Ano’ng course kaya tinake mo? Did u follow ur heart? Or did u follow practicality? Ewan ko rin eh…Pero sana maayos ang lagay mo. Sa mga oras na sinusulat ko ang liham na ito, wow and deep. You are in the process of moving on from a person na minahal mo nang sobra. Si Ivanne? Naaalala mo ba? He’s the first guy who treated you the way you wished to be treated by guys you like. He made you feel loved, accepted. Sadly, his actions were just his efforts to be a good person. Nothing romantic. Nothing more. Kapag binabasa mo ‘to, I want you to reminisce how you used to dream of him. You used to dream of living with him. Used to dream of building a family with his dog, Zeus. He’s everything you could’ve asked for. He’s everything you wished for kay God. Pero sadly, this is not the timeline for the both of you. Ewan ko kung natatandaan mo pa pero he once said to you na ‘wag kang mangamba, mag-worry. Kasi he’s sure na in another life, you guys are happy together… As much as I want to hold on to that hope na masaya kami kahit hindi sa mundong ‘to. There’s really no assurance of the other life. Wala eh. Pero. Sana sa taong nababasa mo na ‘to ay nakahanap ka na ng someone that’s like him pero kayang i-reciprocate ‘yung pagmamahal na binigay mo. If ever man na kayo ang endgame ni Ivanne, please allow him to read this letter and say na I love you and it’s always been you. I believe na this is a goodbye letter for my feelings. Ewan ko pero I wrote this letter kasi gusto ko lang na magkaroon ng memory kay Ivanne bago ko siya kalimutan.