A letter from Oct 20, 2022

Dear Asher, Are you able to spell genuenly yet? I seriously don't know where the i goes. But I hope everything gets better at home. Hopefully it does and I hope kitty doesn't die anytime soon. What would you do without him? I guess Kimberly would just bring home another cat but it won't ever be the same bond you have with him will it? School isn't great either, im praying in the future you get the therapy you need and panic attacks wont come so easy. I hope you got or get or are getting help with your anxiety so you can finally sit in a quiet room with people. Typing this as i'm in a different room from my ELA class because I'm not doing too well mentally. So you better get the help you need. Alright well onto the second paragraph. Do you still crochet? I hope you do. Keep using it as a stress reliever for however long you need. Remember that elephant you made beila for her birthday? And all those things you made lana for her birthday like Kirby and the cat coaster. I'm almost positive music will always be one of your hobbies. Whether it's listening to it or maybe you're some famous singer because you finally got the courage to sing in front of people. I will be SO disappointed if you EVER stop listening to Metallica or Slipknot. Deftones? Cas? Arctic Monkeys? Iron Maiden? Djo? Girl in Red? Mac Demarco? Tame Impala? You better be a hardcore fan by the time you graduate. I also hope you've learned to skate by then. Also dont forget being in hope squad and being in the parade with the club. Third paragraph. Sam? Please don't let him go so easily like everyone else. He's the sweetest person ever. If something does happen, don't you EVER forget him got it? To fill up this paragraph and because I wanna be extra, I'll name every memorable person in all your classes. Math class is fun with anna, katie, lily, and littzy. Homeroom with morgan is great and Mr. C is the best. German is a bit tedious but at least I have it with sam and beila. I also have gym with sam, but i also have it with sophia, anna, and i'm sure nephi is still a little a hole. Engineering technology is great with tank and the boys. Im talking about both the tylers, isaac, justin, and xavier. Jarek is a little strange and pushy but I'm sure that'll change over time. Earth science is great cause I also have that class with sam, anna, katie, and sophia. Choir is strange and i don't sing but it's fun to have it with brooklyn, angel, and I guess peter. I'm still unsure why he just stopped talking to me out of nowhere but it's whatever. ELA, which is where I'm at, is amazing. I love everyone in this class and Mr. Mitton is also the best. Especially logan, emily, kendall, diamond, ethan, and wyatt. Last class is grizz academy. I guess it's okay. I have it with seaweed, sadly nephi, and jaycee. We don't really talk but I guess it's nice to have it with him. He's also in my gym and german class. Plus, Mr. Frazier is great. Me and sam go chill in his class for a bit during lunch. So yeah those are all your classes, don't forget the memories. Fourth and last paragraph. In the future I want you to be the most successful person you can be. I want you to finally be happy with yourself, and your life. I want you to have a job you enjoy and surround yourself with people who dont judge you and people you love and feel safe with. I want you to finally grab a hold of your anxiety and I want you to be able to manage your way through a panic and anxiety attack. I want you to have a real love whether it's Sam or someone you meet along the way. You deserve it after what you've been through. Hopefully you're still doing everything you love. What makes you happy in general. If it's not the same things then something different that you found makes you happy and giddy. I doubt you're getting married or having kids. Honestly I'd rather live with some friends. Sincerely, past Ash