A letter from Oct 20, 2022

Dear Future Me, Hey, ring now I'm 16. it is undecided as to how far I want to send this to. I don't want it to be to far because I don't know if i will still have the same email. but regardless, assuming you do get this whenever it is. I want to ask you some questions that I know you cant answer but it will still feel good to ask them. as you can tell I'm not really going to bother with spelling and other grammar so do your best to read it. but I'm done with that. currently I'm 16 in one year ill be 17 in 3 ill be 19 and in 5 ill be 21. so I think ill send this to you when your 19 so let me ask my questions. what's changed. we don't look toward the future because every time we do we don't see much, so can you see anything and if so what? and what caused us to want to see. what do we want to do ,where do we want to go , who do we want to spend the rest of time with, what do we want to happen the next day, do we see it getting better or has it already gotten better, what purpose do we serve, who do we save , what do we create, what do we preserve, what do we maintain, what do we look after, what responsibility do we have that others don't, when you get this you'll be 19 so I wonder if you will even know, but the only thing I know you know is if it gets better or not. is it true that becoming is an adult sucks and we should treasure our time as a kid or do we want what comes with being an adult, but those are the questions I wanted to ask because I know you'll know the answer, but here are the ones not even I can imagine the answer to dose if ever get less lonely. is there someone out there for me? when will i stop feeling like every body is ahead of me. and will i stop feeling like I'm watching every thing from afar when will i start feeling like I'm apart of the world that god has created, so what I hope from you is that you know the first questions and hopefully one day if I get to were you are i will know to.