A letter from Oct 08, 2022

dear future rylee, i actually don’t know what to say, to be honest. hello? happy birthday? no idea. but i’m glad you’re seeing this. i have a lot to say and ask. i hope this brings back a lot of memories. not to be selfish, but i’m gonna talk about me first. how am i selfish to myself? i don’t know. well, its 4:01am on a cool october morning, and fall break is about to end. im listening to betty by taylor swift. i need to fix my sleep schedule. do i know how? absolutely not. am i hopeful? yes. okay.. i’ll get to the relevant ****. my life has been.. a little wacky! i suffered from a LOT of anxiety this summer.. mainly from smoking weed. i hope you don’t touch weed again. it ruined us a lot. but i’ve been sober since may, and i’m starting to return to my normal life. and it feels good. really good. high school has been okay. i’m starting to get it. i can’t wait to return to school. i don’t really have a lot of friends anymore, i just have ryan, sophia, and ash. and i can’t wait to turn 14. i think that’s enough about me, let’s talk about you now. i hope you’re taking care of us. i really really do. i hope youre excited to be 17. this is your last year of being a kid.. so i guess you should embrace it! i would really appreciate that. it must be really really nice to be able to drive, have a job, have your own car, you probably have SO much freedom!! did the time fly by fast? are mom and dad divorced? are you reading this in embarrassment of your freshman self? do you know what you wanna do? what college are you planning to attend? i hope it’s out of state.. but if it’s not, i hope you’re going to NAU. ASU is an okay… and UofA is a nope from me. do you have more friends? girlfriend? boyfriend😒😒? i don’t know. how’s maddie? what about phoenix? that’s all i can think of. it’s weird you’re not a kid anymore. i could never imagine myself leaving my childhood behind and becoming an adult. i’ve always imagined myself as a kid.. but it must be nice to be an adult. imagine your own house, job, and being able to do basically anything without restrictions? sounds great! idk. i think that’s all i can think of saying. thank you for reading. i know you might be busy. i love you. take care of us.