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Dear Futureme, I'm struggling to think of what to write right now... Because I want to remind you of everything that happened to me.. So I'll at least try to tell of my current life. I guess I first got the idea to write this, when I was lying in bed, and happened to remember something I did like this in kindergarten. Everyone in the class wrote a letter to their future selves, but I never got mine back. Probably because I moved, but I can't help wondering what I wrote in the letter. I can't remember a single thing from it. Well, school's been going by really fast. The first semester is already over, and the days just seem to fly by. As far as grades go, I'm not doing so well. Most of my class averages went down, besides one or two. I've had an easy time making friends I guess. New ones that is. Phil, Steve, Jay, any of the hundreds of Matts I know. None of them are in my classes again, but I never really thought about that until now. School's been going by fine, except for a few.. events I guess. It's not really all that embarressing, but I did recently ask a girl out. Ashley Matos. But I did this in the most embarressing way possible. I wrote an email, and yes, though a poet I am(not that's funny) I didn't happen to write this very well. I ended up cussing in most of it, calling myself stupid, and I guess I just regretted writing it from the start. And, even before she said no, I knew what the answer would be. But.. not trying to be funny here.. that was the nicest rejection I could have gotten. No one came up to me in school, asking about it. I guess she didn't tell anyone. And I guess the worst part about it was how stupid I felt. But now it seems like this all happened so long ago. Ah, my first real girlfriend? I would think not. I asked out Megan Averatte, mainly because she was easy. I knew I didn't really like her, but I guess I was sick and tired of being the only one without a girlfriend. And she is the one I received my first kiss from, though it wasn't very special. I didn't feel happy when I kissed her, I was just surprised. And the only one who knows that I got my first kiss from her, is not even Megan, but Ashley. And only because she asked. I sure hope I have a girlfriend by now. And I know this seems hypocritical, because I hate it when guys or girls say, "I need a date," and end up dating anyone they come across, but I really want to meet a girl that I love. And I know I'm not an ugly person, but I just have so much trouble talking to girls. I'll make some jokes, hug them, but I'm just so repetative. I don't know. Maby I can change. I didn't sign up to take Orchestra next year. And last week, Ms. Smith called me up and asked me about it. I know that Emmellene is the one who told her. And I'm glad she did. If at all possible, I'm going to try to change from Sychology to Orchestra. I just hope that I can stick with the Cello as long as possible. And I know my parents would want that too. Ah, a career. I guess I still want to persue a career in forensics. I love science, and the thought of dead bodies just makes the matter more interesting. Photography would also be exciting, I think. I know I want to have a hobby of filming, because I don't feel that is ever going to change, but photography is just so meaningfull to me. Capturing a moment in time, and being able to look back on that. It's not rehearsed, not fake, it's ellogancein a frame. Well, I'm still taking medicine for teretz. Most of my friends don't know that I have it, but it's not because I'm embarressed. It's only that, a subject like that doesn't come up too often. Pets. Well. There's Boston the cat, of course. I know she's still around. But Scooby.. She's just so old. And there are so many things wrong with her. I hope this doesn't sound mean, but I feel that she's going to die of old age soon. I only hope that I'm not the one to find her.. Adam's still in California. And I just now remembered about his coming home. I think there's still a year and a half left for him in the Marines. It'll be great to see him again. And I have a feeling were going to be hanging out a lot more, since I'll have my permit at least by then and we should film a lot more sketches together. But it would be enough just to have a fire with him again. Kevin's in College still, of course. And, I'm not sure when he's leaving, but I know I'll see him soon. He always comes home for vacations, and I'm positive were going to spend a lot of time filming together next time I see him. And, hopefully by the time I'm a senior, we'll have hours of footage. But not only me and him, but Adam my friends and... hopefully Katey will be old enough to understand most of the comedy by then. I think, though I did write a lot, that I'm going to regret not writing more. And it's just so hard to think of years into the future. I do have my fears of this email not working, but I guess if it works it works. There's just one more thing that I want to tell myself.. I came really close to being arrested, a few times this year. I've vandalized cars and houses, scared random people on the street, and it's just so much fun that I hope it never ends. So long, goodbye.