A letter from Sep 25, 2022

Dear Future Me, You've caused so much suffering... yet you do nothing. And so you've earned nothing in return. You friends will never forgive you. They'll abandon you like you did to them... and that's what you deserve. You tell yourself that you don't want to burden others... But the truth is that you're selfish. You just don't want people to depend on you. When do you think about others? How long are you going to let people take care of you? You say you care but you're a liar. You've never done anything for anyone else. You're useless... less than useless. You're sick. People like you don't deserve to live. Your friends are wrong about you. The person they love isn't you at all. You let them believe in a lie to protect yourself. You're nothing but a liar... and when they see the truth... They'll hate you as much as you hate yourself. If they know the truth, you'll never be able to regain their trust. No matter what you do, it will be hopeless. All you'll do is make things worse. It would be better to just die. You should just die.