A letter from Sep 25, 2022

How can I survive? I don't do well in my academics I am not even a good daughter, or even sister I cannot drive, or cook my social anxiety sucks, I cannot even talk properly even with a single person even my English is so freaking bad why am I soo fake and pathetic, I have join society's, and push myself to get a friends. But for what? trying so hard to impress no one for me to taste a piece of life, to feel alive again. I missed the old me. Can I survive, or will I survive? How to "be yourself", when me myself don't even know what I wants in my life?