A letter from September 24th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Well well well hello 23 yr old me. I was so extremely tempted to do what i do best and write to me in 1 month, 3 months, 6 months etc. That’s what i have been doing since last year when i started writing futureme letters. I look back, and all of them become redundant after even a few weeks after they’re delivered. What i have learned is that the things that weigh so extremely heavy on mind don’t ever matter in a larger scale. And they will always feel like the weight of the world at that moment. I have grown so much livi :’) I wondered if you’ve already gotten some more letters from me from my 19 yr old self and earlier this year when i turned 20. I have a million and one questions for you 23 year old me. I wonder if you’re still as lost as i am, which i wouldn’t be surprised at all. I have officially given up on finding some “solution” to my life path ********. I learned there is never that secret solution to solve all of my problems. So here i am, with only 1 year of college education under my belt and we’re going on two years since we’ve been in school. I really thought moving abroad to another university was going to be my answer, my savior. I have learned so much. Things never go the way you think they will, that’s a lesson learned for me. It was so, so hard at first. I fly back home on Friday, can you believe it??? Haha, don’t tell 19 year old me, she’d freak out. But i am okay, i am so happy and content in my decisions. It is such a blessing to have this much freedom to even be able to say i’m “lost” in life. Remember what a ******* privilege it is to say that. You’re okay Livi. So anyways, how do you feel reading all of this??? What are you up to?? Hate to ask lol but what do you “do”🤣 What about the new dream of moving to Mexico instead lol. Ugh i am so tired and done and truly DRAINED in all forms imaginable from this one move to Europe. This took so much from me and so much timeeeee imagining and imagining and imagining this moment. I would’ve never thought it’d go this way. But i am so happy really. I know this went exactly the way it was meant to, i learned so ******* much from just these almost 4 weeks I’ve been here. So yea anyways i keep losing my train of thought lol i’m here at starbucks, yes in paris lol, leave me aloneeee its my last week, i’m still a bit sick and i’m not doing anything on my lil Saturday. My last Saturday in Paris :( but also its a nice day to stay in because yesterday wasn’t that fun. We’ll see what i plan for the rest of this week, have to complete the full Paris bucket list! Love you, gosh, it feels like it will be for-*******-ever until i read this hahah. Omg you’re gonna be 23 turning 24 in January wtfffff. I’m sooo sorry but that’s so ******* old to me. You’re not even close to being a teenager anymore what the hell. That’s so scary holy ****. Lol okay also before i gooooo, don’t judge me please but….. obviouslyyyyy it’s been forever since you last spoke to A right.. LOL OK LISTEN, be patient with me please. I am finallyyyy starting to get over him in the sense that i know he does not gaf about me LMAO or definitely not in the sense that i care about him. I am young & naïve okayyy i have a lot to learn when it comes to dating & relationships. But i embrace it!! That’s the super fun in it. And obviously being in Paris taught me a lot about dating as well, and also helped so much in not thinking about him as much. So yea, I’m definitely done talking to him he just doesn’t want what i want, and he just overrides what i want with what he wants and i obviously will never be expressing these things to him. He’s a grown *** man he’s not dumb lol. But yea i look forward to seeing my reaction when i read this part again lols, ooo maybe you have a whole *** boyfriend by now or possibly just a nice beautiful single life, as i do now hehe. Okay well i am done with my pumpkin spice latte now, and I’ve been sitting here for a while. This was lovely to write, i loveeee u 23 yr old livi. I know you’re so cool and amazing and lovely and prosperous. Look at meee!! 20 yr old me is so happy & full of life despite having to clue wtf im doing with my life. Talk soon:)