A letter from Sep 18, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Right now, as of September 18, 2022, things aren't going so well... To start, You're back living with your mom and looking for work. Its hard, but you're doing all you can to keep your head up. You're single and still living with your children's father/ love of your life. To add insult to injury, you still sleep in the same bed. Things are mostly awkward and you guys argue more, but it could be worse. You have to better yourself mentally and physically before you can jump back into anything with anyone. Ultimately, you want him, but yall not there yet....maybe someday. You and your bestfriend aren't talking right now for something that you feel is dumb and trivial, but you realize that you're not the only one with strong feelings in this situation, and your feelings aren't the only ones that matter. Nonetheless, now is the time to put your mental first, with it being so fragile due to recent turn of events. You're so angry and disappointed with her because you thought that your friendship was better than this. You wanna make up, but you're so unsure and blind as to where this will go. Only time will tell. You applied for a school to do sonography, but ended up applying for radiology instead. It was either that or nothing, and you and your kids can't afford nothing...not anymore. The good thing about it is that you can cross-train in sonography and enroll in that class once you become certified in radiology. After all the hope and prayers, you get accepted and can finally see the sun through the stormy clouds. You're scared, but are also extremely excited for what's to come. The real challenge is yet to begin and you can't wait. failure doesn't scare you anymore. There's more going on, but I just wanted to recap the major stuff. I hope future me is happy and successful and loving the career I'm in. I hope I feel more confident and comfortable in my skin and love myself a hell of a lot more in 2025 than 2022. I hope through all the ********, you and Detrell found your way back to each other, and if not, accept that it was probably for the best and are amazing coparents. I hope your kids are happy and healthy and wanting for nothing in this scary world. I have faith that you'll be exactly where you should be. I'll make sure of it. I have 3 years to get my **** together. I'm holding back tears as i'm typing this .Okay let me go before I can't do it anymore 😅 I love you Marcya, and I'm so proud of you, no matter what happens 🙂 Oh yeah....Happy 30th Birthday PS, the tears fell. Shutup, stop laughing, you know we're emotional😭😂

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Well, Marcya. You did NOT get back with your kid’s father. You hated him for a long time, but bit by bit, you’re working on yall coparent relationship.

As far...

Uyo uhtrhog ,retgdna daem not ocs,ohl het sa tbu tgo wsa bset !!in! it ouy lsoc,ho it. Raey on wrgknoi for and the uryo igaingn rove uy’eor yv’oeu to as…obrd , ta cerauog eakt ebne isht wllsyo opmncya a onw. I onwk , uyo xnet tt,emtap ly’oul urn nma,orey sspa ryou ubt it that nwok tca’n i!t sfirt so carmbegin ti oyu adfiel the yuo uoy rmof teim are.
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Utb llwe uyo ddi yera ytpret raf on off nerlicceo nad ti etbs sa a sa , oryu wsa telar fdne,ri. Make a enfdir uyo ehs a ahd ayw layl hewn ****** to efle itonltcrasea leik dah. Ot ti she came you lal ltsa dan adhe ehnw a her iymalf ayre edujmp. Ew it us btu ghftigin veeblei t,i 😂 idd yuo !!?? anc. Ullcayat ti nra bcak. 😌 nda tmeeylpocl whit ’vaetnh tath ee’wr seinc tkeadl aoyk.
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Of ubestjc ihtw a no ocedcetnn ewf eht ouy snrfid,e. Was lkey it , firts. Wheli oyu ewre oury ti yruo feni was ifeeglns wiht *** sid’k ogrwnik tuo irlg, elky yse 😋🤣 ehatrf. Tuo poinhg dn’itd iccodenfne to ooeensm to rof oaneny ot veig isht sya yuo theer , eth ubt you aaign rewe kbac ehwil etg ouy. Dya tequi tem illyatler hte him onit uyor ran you dna tnhe texn. Ntkghini knwo you i’m thwa. Dna ev’we iefn him was taht to nam nlgetit heacnc enrtw’e get l,esiv a all ew ghttuoh our ihwt ttha ??!! go. Iekl nhril,opieast trap uyo a tino ou’lndwt a ti reom htgutoh uyo ayhsplci fo nya uoy he ujts sbeceau of tiwnang ntwe byoislps. He utb did. How ♀🤦🏾️‍ did ew evleebi it that tle ngtiim ubt ighstn teldlre teyh dan iinved ot ldepay iurn in i tuo ekli. In but flel mhi yuo ouy haenpp ot wsa ahtt td’nid vleo ecpext wtha itwh. Nices eavh 2023 bnee. Kaoy tbu imh uoy eo,dt’sn oot tshta’ ,eartg ensghac hnsfedpiri oem,r loev re,mo tub noghue hsietmogn if nad crsteep lyal it to it ntio if. Ahev uyo olstmy niesc otni nrapielshoti ciashylp ensic mhi, had arn ayll a. Esmo ubt on ,obtud mps,bu ahye. Had ettsing on nmo,etms omsmtne smeo esmo uyo tmnosme iqenesoudt too msoe off vwe’e rehew uroy ienr,dpsifh and. Yuro she’ peorsn beocem n,wo. Tno rnedfi that utb ruoy etbs eh si ,yaw. Setb hda otn fo se,tb eno uov’ey teh the fi. Aslpy yol’ul relentyla eb dah ofeerrv yuo lla ti rtfuagle mhi ,tou how.
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Fi it ap,ts yuo w,on cdibrees toarneh and ti anc mrfo i rna oruy dinefr *********** aws iotn a. Scah thsi , enrifd swa ahitsaro. Enrev ew ohsloc ese siad,a ubt tihw htta atht ahtt did npicic aeftr ow,n detkal we eiuss ahd reh ew. Ni erh tion uyo nar 4220. And clei,kdc su ayll ni rfidne hiwt maemldeiyti dmoev oru ebst eebcam. Asw treytp ti 😅 ersalibpane weer y,nellrxeat ryuo ally rfihpndise draem. Su sihg,nt wya ni ledeph a esh ni u,s eeibdevl and tthuga su eevn elha. Omce rtaetm aelcp on okto dsleeyertpa uoy mfro tub kbac ’cutndol who ahtt yuo ngsitohem wnedat ot. Ywas redtap laly. Ahtt faed you ntid’d wokn were ttebir ol,gn and dluow wyaa nhew so fro. Lshooc otmasl oyu wsa ccnpii a aery at reh sthi uryo eftar a,eyr. Bhto lsalm oyu to treah rhtae had a. Difisrehpn ew hatt ewer os ueescab tghhuo sillt nda rgyna, ew nggivrei tllis sdsime neev ewer. Seh swa too. To lyal onw lkta frmo etmi iemt. Uyo sdibenraou yrou tub aehv. Uyo lcose teg aagni to oallw nwt’o rleoyusf. Sta’ht okay nad.
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…ratnhoe ginth. Oruy tlka esp,orn todn’ mranoey lyla. Eyar su seh lats uhrt a tlo. Otl owehl ekil a. Oto srthaioa otni ikand seuctbj asllf ahtt. Adn , m,nthos btu in ntaw tno’d eayrll lol’yu nhte’va aetdlk to levo ylal oyu lywsaa kl…ta rhe.
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Alst ntgih. Uoy yuor its’ dtrhi a !a!c!r! gto s,ye cra. Hre st’i bbay 😂 gto iweht rrngawel you evol a uyo adn. Harte wrko, oyru seh eesdn a lli btu ahs seh. .
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O…nw. Fo gcami 2,042 ecbemerd ni lsot ew. Dba a saw yreall in car nadiccet rleayl she. Wree lei layltto onnag we rbeko otn faymil it adn teh stvadateed. Fo yma nteiua in too padses 0252, nad. Noe bad the aubot ouy htat stom efel. Onmevhilrewg adn eb ot dmeov ehs ni ogt ti. Reh no nad dranoj me aomm,m moer lepdeh nhat eon. Wsa mlaiyf otg nda esh ays ot ot hre btu we all edbooyg donaru. ’ntidd yuerltnfo,tanu egt ttah 😞 imacg.
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Adb iongd ont too al,l all ’wree in. Rwnkgoi ee’rw slsrveeuo llist on. Ysda uoy ,isnk ni have mero uoyr ubt fiotedncn yuo rea. 13 dna w’ere yuro lndtieiyfe eb a no had nad yhtehal cirsis dfimiel osn nca hgthuo yahpp, oury ew you opp rae ♀🤣🤦‍🏾️ ibetsgg ,t03h onw uor dkis. Si’t ni dkian seldtte. If it ro meso be nd’to asdy ti fele fo i o’yud see teehs’r n,wo eevn sulryfoe rpduo os. Uto hatt dema fo rfmo it 2202 🥹😌 we kaserdsn.
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Kacb ’lli in 3 erays eb. 😭 34 ta.
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Mrcyaa you, ovel 🏾😘✌ i.

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marcela.bmatos:

about 12 hours ago

Quero atualizações por favor.
Voltou com o pai dos seus filhos?
E o Kylie ?
E a prova?

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