A letter from Sep 18, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Right now, as of September 18, 2022, things aren't going so well... To start, You're back living with your mom and looking for work. Its hard, but you're doing all you can to keep your head up. You're single and still living with your children's father/ love of your life. To add insult to injury, you still sleep in the same bed. Things are mostly awkward and you guys argue more, but it could be worse. You have to better yourself mentally and physically before you can jump back into anything with anyone. Ultimately, you want him, but yall not there yet....maybe someday. You and your bestfriend aren't talking right now for something that you feel is dumb and trivial, but you realize that you're not the only one with strong feelings in this situation, and your feelings aren't the only ones that matter. Nonetheless, now is the time to put your mental first, with it being so fragile due to recent turn of events. You're so angry and disappointed with her because you thought that your friendship was better than this. You wanna make up, but you're so unsure and blind as to where this will go. Only time will tell. You applied for a school to do sonography, but ended up applying for radiology instead. It was either that or nothing, and you and your kids can't afford nothing...not anymore. The good thing about it is that you can cross-train in sonography and enroll in that class once you become certified in radiology. After all the hope and prayers, you get accepted and can finally see the sun through the stormy clouds. You're scared, but are also extremely excited for what's to come. The real challenge is yet to begin and you can't wait. failure doesn't scare you anymore. There's more going on, but I just wanted to recap the major stuff. I hope future me is happy and successful and loving the career I'm in. I hope I feel more confident and comfortable in my skin and love myself a hell of a lot more in 2025 than 2022. I hope through all the ********, you and Detrell found your way back to each other, and if not, accept that it was probably for the best and are amazing coparents. I hope your kids are happy and healthy and wanting for nothing in this scary world. I have faith that you'll be exactly where you should be. I'll make sure of it. I have 3 years to get my **** together. I'm holding back tears as i'm typing this .Okay let me go before I can't do it anymore 😅 I love you Marcya, and I'm so proud of you, no matter what happens 🙂 Oh yeah....Happy 30th Birthday PS, the tears fell. Shutup, stop laughing, you know we're emotional😭😂

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Well, Marcya. You did NOT get back with your kid’s father. You hated him for a long time, but bit by bit, you’re working on yall coparent relationship.

As far...

Meda it grtadne, wsa olhoc,s not ti hc,loso tesb n!!!i you eth uoy sa otg rhoguth ubt. Het erya vero to ngkriwo ruyo yroue’ eakt enbe and company at swolyl iths now argceou , iigngna brdosa… no yu’oev for a. !it ti it eth urn xnte na’tc uroy i yoll’u ear nwok , emit sspa uyo so ,tettapm afdeli ormf owkn may,eonr oyu yuo rifts earicbmgn tub uoy atth.
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Wsa tesb pttrye uoy no dna nrccileoe neifr,d a as , lwle idd tub fra sa trlea reya fof uryo it. Awy flee hda a uoy hes to meak llya a keil tsctloaainre dha firned hnew ******. Ot all tsla a yera hes aimyfl amec uyo djupme hdea reh nad hwen it. Us you ??!! we i,t elivebe 😂 it fhnigtig ubt idd anc. Cyalutla bkac anr ti. Ihwt ciens ayko eoetcmypll htat we’re ekaltd 😌 vhn’tea adn.
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Uyo cntodncee no jtceusb edrns,if efw a tiwh hte fo. Elyk , tfirs ti wsa. Disk’ tou lkye ti *** efni tfrhea was whti gsineelf oryu rwee esy wgnokir rouy lig,r ielwh ouy 🤣😋. Monosee yanone yuo agnai out ouy tbu oginph ewre ot cencfneiod egvi for , gte sthi indt’d bcka teh ysa elwhi ehtre to ot oyu. Ielrlytal adn uyo rna ady het etuiq ntoi ruoy hent tem ntex mih. Wtah im’ knwo oyu tnkhinig. To ’ewnrte all wthi dna uor ihm v,esli tngliet we taht cnehca atth w’eve man egt enfi go a wsa !??! hutohgt. Iplchasy of a newt ntio eh aeihot,psnlir tgohhtu yuo ltwudon’ eesubca usjt you like nay fo ngwiatn yuo rtap oerm ti a ysipbols. Eh btu idd. Who etl ruin adn we did ielvbee i it htta nsghit btu tmiing 🏾♀️🤦‍ yhte out ividne deylap ni to etrdell kile. Txecpe voel ouy ihm in ’iddtn hpanep hitw utb wtha was llef yuo ot htat. Aveh 3022 encis bene. Mreo, adn vloe ouy heagsnc ’,sendto llay tbu to emo,r ntoi t’stha fi reg,ta if ayok ti nhsdpirfei tub it rectpse mhi gitmheson too nheguo. Oaprisethnli a ,mih dah oyu arn inces aehv ayll ciens lmoyst pchylsai oitn. No eayh tbu some pbmus, odbtu,. No off iutensdeoq too omse omsntem nad you sip,idhnerf ’vewe reewh smtmno,e ntigtes moes oryu mntmsoe ahd mseo. ,wno nrpeso ruyo ’hes mceebo. Atth ebts tbu ton si your ay,w fdirne eh. Ont teh etbs fo bes,t dah noe uove’y fi eth. Oulyl’ all etelylran vfreore ti be tou, how mih laetfrgu yuo asypl dah.
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Own, *********** yuor it birdeces rmfo aws arn nca i itno rnfide psat, uoy if ontrhea dna it a. Hsarotai frdien , chas swa isht. Htat btu cicnpi rfeta ew ew sia,ad ew ,won holosc hatt taht tedlak htiw adh reh reenv ese eiuss did. Ni 2420 tnio ran her yuo. Ciek,ldc wtih us in etbs dmaelytemii uor dnerfi vdemo nda maceeb ylla. Royu asw 😅 rewe ypettr hnrdispief allnetxey,r layl aedmr eeslnarpiab ti. Eahl su, even hse su us a nhg,ist ni yaw tuhagt leephd dibelvee dna in. Mngiesoth no tub eandtw lpeac hwo ouy ot detesraeylp form took eattmr ltonud’c coem tath yuo akcb. Ylla aswy pretad. Were hnew os gn,ol wdoul dan rfo hatt etrtbi eadf ayaw dtd’in oyu konw. Oyu swa a ,arye oryu shit at oscohl maltso her afetr cncipi ayer. Raeht btho almls to had a ouy hetra. We mssdei llsti iivgnegr enev htat isllt hghtuo nyg,ar inedfhsrpi reew ew so acesbeu wree nda. Oto swa hes. Tmei won ltak ot etmi ormf ylal. Uyo ryuo ubt sirnedoaub vaeh. Llawo etg o’ntw angai oyu scleo oeylfurs ot. Akyo dna st’ath.
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Ntigh h…nroeta. Yrou eynmroa od’tn ltka resopn, llya. Lot ehs su rtuh a raye satl. Olt elik a ewlho. Lfsal iont toriaahs ttha bjetcus inkad too. …talk lktade ylaler btu awlysa olev nh’veta uyo ot adn in toshn,m ylla nwat hre , uy’lol n’dot.
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Ihntg tlas. Ouy ogt ,sye rdhit s’ti r!!!ac! yoru arc a. Uyo 😂 elrrangw tog ovel erh a wehti s’ti bayb dna uoy. Hes ryou tbu ensed seh lli ertah has a krw,o. .
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…wno. In we stlo eredmceb 204,2 gicma fo. Icadtcen lyrlae hes asw areyll ni a adb acr. Dasedtatev lei ekbro eerw ew it ton tyllato nnoag hte myafil and. Sasdpe ni nda tnuiea yma fo 2,520 oto. Bda obatu lefe oen htta smto het you. Ogt evomd nda ti gmwelehoirvn ni hes to eb. Lpedeh dna ammm,o ronjda one hant me no her emro. Bogoyed adruno ew aws ot lla ehr lfimya but ot dna tgo yas esh. Otyuufen,lrtna tge taht n’tddi gamic 😞.
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Bda lal oot r’ewe ni not dngio la,l. Sleruosve no we’er llist ronwgik. Sady in tfcdonine snki, uyor but uyo uoy rmeo era aveh. Pop yefinidtel erew’ oyu uoyr nso sbeigtg ear and oury ️♀🤦🤣‍🏾 0h3,t a onw thlyahe dha 31 hgohtu sikd lieidmf ruo cna phap,y nad eb isicrs we on. Telsdet kadni sti’ ni. I t’don elfyusro w,no dporu semo efel dyas fi uoy’d os estreh’ ees fo eb it ti vnee or. Rmfo uto dmae ttah ew 🥹😌 resknads 2022 it of.
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3 eb in ayers li’l kabc. 43 😭 at.
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O,uy 😘🏾✌ i lvoe camray.

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marcela.bmatos:

10 days ago

Quero atualizações por favor.
Voltou com o pai dos seus filhos?
E o Kylie ?
E a prova?

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