A letter from Sep 18, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Right now, as of September 18, 2022, things aren't going so well... To start, You're back living with your mom and looking for work. Its hard, but you're doing all you can to keep your head up. You're single and still living with your children's father/ love of your life. To add insult to injury, you still sleep in the same bed. Things are mostly awkward and you guys argue more, but it could be worse. You have to better yourself mentally and physically before you can jump back into anything with anyone. Ultimately, you want him, but yall not there yet....maybe someday. You and your bestfriend aren't talking right now for something that you feel is dumb and trivial, but you realize that you're not the only one with strong feelings in this situation, and your feelings aren't the only ones that matter. Nonetheless, now is the time to put your mental first, with it being so fragile due to recent turn of events. You're so angry and disappointed with her because you thought that your friendship was better than this. You wanna make up, but you're so unsure and blind as to where this will go. Only time will tell. You applied for a school to do sonography, but ended up applying for radiology instead. It was either that or nothing, and you and your kids can't afford nothing...not anymore. The good thing about it is that you can cross-train in sonography and enroll in that class once you become certified in radiology. After all the hope and prayers, you get accepted and can finally see the sun through the stormy clouds. You're scared, but are also extremely excited for what's to come. The real challenge is yet to begin and you can't wait. failure doesn't scare you anymore. There's more going on, but I just wanted to recap the major stuff. I hope future me is happy and successful and loving the career I'm in. I hope I feel more confident and comfortable in my skin and love myself a hell of a lot more in 2025 than 2022. I hope through all the ********, you and Detrell found your way back to each other, and if not, accept that it was probably for the best and are amazing coparents. I hope your kids are happy and healthy and wanting for nothing in this scary world. I have faith that you'll be exactly where you should be. I'll make sure of it. I have 3 years to get my **** together. I'm holding back tears as i'm typing this .Okay let me go before I can't do it anymore 😅 I love you Marcya, and I'm so proud of you, no matter what happens 🙂 Oh yeah....Happy 30th Birthday PS, the tears fell. Shutup, stop laughing, you know we're emotional😭😂

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Well, Marcya. You did NOT get back with your kid’s father. You hated him for a long time, but bit by bit, you’re working on yall coparent relationship.

As far...

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Aws anr *********** and i oyu ti at,ps fi naehtor a wno, tino omfr can eericbds ti rouy nfredi. Was tihs oathrsia , hcsa fdeirn. Dah we tbu taht hiwt ieuss we did fatre reven see aai,ds reh htat npicci ohlcos tlaekd ,won tath ew. Ni 2240 yuo nar rhe iont. Tbes in nad uor ally su rifnde thwi imitlmedaey aebemc dmoev edcic,lk. 😅 sraiaeebnlp damre eiinrfhdps rewe yerlalx,nte swa alyl it yttepr oury. Su, a ni adn tuahtg su hepdel us hes hale veiledbe neve wya ni hitn,gs. Tath eapyesrdtle metrta ouy lpcae tbu on dneawt uyo einohgsmt how ckba okto to morf lt’unodc cmoe. Laly ysaw patder. D’idnt fro uoy wkon dan brteti eerw owldu afde l,ogn aawy thta os newh. Uoy ta yaer tihs ccniip wsa a rhe ayr,e lmosat oohslc uyro rteaf. Haert hda a htare you to lamls bhot. Dan erew we os ew bsuacee vnee lsilt hoghut hatt reew isdesm ,gnrya espfriidnh llsti evgngiri. Was oot hse. Itme to tlka layl nwo emit mfor. Ubt hvea uoy royu anuseirdob. Owt’n to tge efusrylo lwloa aniga osecl uyo. Aoyk dan ’atths.
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Aron…the ginth. ,nposer llya yoru neroaym ltka nt’od. Ltas a olt utrh us esh reya. A lto leik ehowl. Htat onit iasarhto oot bcjetus aidnk fslal. Dlketa yalaws , a…ltk wnta tdno’ in ouy ,somthn o’luyl ot layl va’nthe loev erh dna tbu rlleya.
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Htngi tsla. Yuro s,ey a otg st’i rca !c!r!a! hritd you. Ehr nrwarleg wehti ’its oyu got 😂 vloe baby dan ouy a. Esh tub a atehr lli wr,ko esh edens ruoy sah. .
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…nwo. In of 0422, gmaci we bdrmeece olst. Ni ehs rca a leaylr ylrlae abd swa atndiecc. Not lei reew okreb lyaltot the ew dvaaettsed nad aymfil agonn ti. Nda ni fo 202,5 aiuetn yma apessd too. Tmos eno ttah bda ubaot eefl the yuo. Ni ot dna meovd eb ti hveonlgirwme tgo ehs. Mmo,ma me elhpde nhta on rhe nda remo eno janrdo. Ew oedobyg ot ays she lla dan btu iamfly swa to doruan tgo her. Tge d’nitd 😞 utntoynea,rful atht gmiac.
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Ni gndoi ont oto ,lal lla abd ’erwe. On eossreulv ee’rw illst kgrinow. Kni,s mreo ni ydas ouy eniotcdnf hvea era uoy tub your. No hthaley 🤦️‍🏾🤣♀ skdi nwo 3,ht0 uhhotg a ew’re opp rou hda cna nso tbegsig uoy we 31 ryuo delteniify oruy era h,papy srisic eb and ilmdfei dan. Ni sti’ tldsete adikn. Be dsya sfruloey eths’re neev pudor of ti ees or feel ody’u dno’t it fi i so o,nw smoe. Of ti hatt deam 😌🥹 uot 2202 ssnakerd ew mrof.
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Eb syare ’lil 3 in bakc. At 43 😭.
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I 🏾😘✌ aycrma ouy, evlo.

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marcela.bmatos:

9 days ago

Quero atualizações por favor.
Voltou com o pai dos seus filhos?
E o Kylie ?
E a prova?

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