Who am I?

Dear FutureMe, In the past, I had my goal for being a teacher because I like to play with young friends since. However, it's not an easy thing to do and it's not what I had ever expected. I see many "blocks" in front of me which makes me hard to reach to the top. I had once lost confidence and failed to learn better in Psychology after entering kwantlen College. I am an useless person. My mom, once I thought to be a good, caring parent, discourages me to reach up high due to my failures. I hate her many times whenever she turned me down and "******" me many times. I wonder 20 years later in this time of day, who will I be then? Will my fate turn better in future?