A letter from Sep 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, you are currently 16 about to turn 17 in less than a month. Im ngl im at **** rn but its okay because that's why I'm writing this. 4 years later after my last one sent to another 4 years. The last letter made me laugh tbh, still taking care of isaac except now he's potty trained and he's a little ipad kid. He's going to be 8 at the time when you remember this. You prolly wont forget about it just cuz i remembered the last one 4 years after right before i got it and wasn't shocked to read it. I still remember what I wrote in there and it just refreshed my memories of how bad i thought life was when i was only 12. Now im about to turn 17 and i've realized how much life just got worse, you'll prolly be even worse at this letter hopefully you'll have that court reporting job. the biggest thing happening rn is anthony. idk if you'd want to be reminded of this cuz if im being honest we're never forgetting him as much as i want to rewind time from just a lil over a month ago. If ur so curious about my last person rn, you might want to check that black book, PRAYING you still have it because it's the only thing saving you rn. I wonder how much you have written in there. I have Johnny, mommy, morgan, anthony maldonado, anthony "22", hayden, KADEN, tony, tia. Do u still talk to kaden? tj? what ever happened with maldonado cuz we always end up running back eventually? same with kaden except thats 10x worse. I also have ivan, ricardo, adan in there from mcdonalds lol. i miss that place rn i had such a emotional attachment from that tiny little restaurant i was at more than home for a good few months. whatever happened with ivan cuz rn he was just a weirdo after we broke up and he's going into the navy soon i hope he's in a good place rn. still cant believe he took my virginity and i completely lost feelings that fast sometimes i feel bad but thats just life. i got karma with anthony badly and we're currently trying to recover i hope you dont think it was ur fault still bcuz something tells me it wasn't cuz im 16. do yk where he is in life yet? does he have a family? a wife? anthony amaya, a wonderful gentlemen with a ****** concience idk about ****** intentions. maybe you'll feel different bout him later. im convinced kaden is my first love rn rather than tj just cuz i chose derek over tj which i wouldn't have done if tj was my first love. ive chosen kaden over every guy for so long since march 28, 2021. it feels like so long ago but we're about to be in 2023 in 3 months, thats crazy. i hope u graduated on time or atleast somewhere shortly after that. jason and emma are my absolute bestfriends rn, somewhere along those lines also kaden is. my last page mommy and johnny were going thru a divorce and i was so lost with it, well mommy got married again to tony just yesterday. lifes so different and i want to apologize to 4 years ago me when i didn't know where i was and the way i disappointed that little girl that was called a ***** all through middle school denying everyone. 4 bodies in 3 1/2 months hg, yikes. tbh i blame it on anthony, its okay lemme stop. anyways, until ur 20 years old about to have ur 21st birthday. ill see u then until this message gets lost.