A letter from Sep 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, This is the 3rd day of our long uni journey and i'm sitting here in my,much smaller than expected, "chambre de foyer" i just received the letter you wrote 2 years ago and that's all it took for tears,that i've been holding on inside, to come falling down . I don't even know how to start this, it just feels like a Rollercoaster of feelings switching between feeling lonely wanting to be alone, lucky yet kinda regretful in a split of a second. Even tho Iset'Com was my first choice,i still question my choice and my abilities. I know it just started but why does life here feel so fast paced? Hopefully, you'll receive this letter after you're done with uni. Deep down i know how capable you are and i know this is just a phase that won't last long, after all it's a brand new experience, a whole new life where you have to face some inconveniences for the first time and have no choice but to deal with them even with tears running down your cheeks But i hope when that day comes when you finally read this, all these dark feelings will have no place in your heart. And now i'm just wondering : How's my 22 y.o self doing ? How's she handling life's hardships ? Is she content ? Got her spark back? Still a reader who's into sad and gloomy books that leave her in a constant questioning phase for weeks after ? And lastly the question i fear most : are the ones she cherish and love still around? Sincerly; your desperate 19 y.o who's still figuring out her life and herself.