A letter from September 11th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hii, My birthday is near but just don't feel to celebrate it idk why and I also know why.So many ups and down are there . sometimes I feel I really have to bear this or not is god is with me or not .They say happiness comes with pain first but Id think this is true.What do u think if you are reading this then give me some words of your that helps me to understand things. When is see peoples near me happy with their lives I feel something ahmmm jealous?? Yeah I think... They are really Happy or they have also problems like me? sometimes I feel that they have but then after imagining their happy life I don't think they have. This are things I have in my mind now and felt like to share to someone but don't know with whom. I don't know I will get any response or not but I really want some.let's wait for three years then we will see😊 . Thank you so much if you will read this ((.