A letter from Sep 09, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It is September 9, 2022. Hi Self! Honestly, your past months were not easy, you struggle a lot, you changed a lot, you adapted a lot to things you never imagine coming into your life. You're not completely happy today, you're doubting yourself, you are doubting the way you are taking right now. You are not clear to what direction you re heading, if your BEED course right now is for you or are you gonna be happy in the future with job you are reaching today? You do not accept your reality wholeheartedly today that is why you are stressing a lot, you are not satisfied to what you are doing, you are not even excited going to school nor coming home, coz it's as if everything is for a show. You're doing things for others, for your family not for yourself, coz everything you are doing right now is not actually your happiness and this is very sad. I pity you self, if I just have the guts to send you to eternal rest I will do so since you think you are not living, you are only breathing but your life, it belongs to someone else. i really wanna die. You wanna die but I hope for you to still manage the anxiety you are having now and still be able to face everything, be able accept and be able to find joy. I will seek purpose in this journey for you, with high hopes and trust that you will never ever regret anything in *****.