A letter from Sep 05, 2022

Dear FutureMe, "It's a bad day, not a bad life" is something I've been telling myself for 3 years. I meant to write on my birthday, then on the day, I received a certificate from my school. But I didn't, so here we are now. Today was the first day of the new school year. I had the option to go to campus or stay with an online school. I stuck with online since my teacher isn't on campus. I want to go to the campus so wrong, my friends are there. I feel so left out and LONELY. I'm trying to **** this loneliness in me. It's so hard. I can't have what I want, what all my friends have. It seems so childish but I'm 19 and missing out on everything. It's a tough time, financially. I know my parents are doing their best but moving on is so hard. I feel like crying. I guess this letter has turned into a vent. I hope things are better on the other side.