i think we’re gonna be fine

Dear 17 year old Nora Moni, So it's your 13 year old self. Um, how's life? yeah well, on my end it's pretty anxious and scary but like that fun type of scary. It’s like the ride up a really big rollercoaster and you’re scared of happens at the top but you also can’t wait for the laughs that happen after? Yesterday was my orientation for freshman year and honestly I'm scared out of my mind.I was so excited and pumped about attending and I still am, it's just when I went there I saw how many people were there and they're all so smart. But looking back, I’m sure that all of them were just as scared as I was. I'm not having second thoughts of vo tech, don't worry I'm still working hard to get that dream life, and I don't plan on stopping. So how's our life right now? do we still keep in touch with bansari to and kcean ? I really hope we do cause they were our biggest cheerleaders and the best friends that I have. I Remember that when the results first came out, i got waitlisted, i found out during lunch and i saw so sad, i wanted o be happy for sanvi though and happy that i could still see them next year but the tears wouldn’t stop. i locked myself in a bathroom and i heard kcean come in the and just stand outside my stall saying nothing . She didn’t forced me to talk about anything just stood there always there for me. When i was ready and opened the door all she did was take a tissue out and let me take my time. In the end she gave me a hug that spoke more than any words she could’ve said. When i moved up the waitlist bansari was the first person to find out, she knew that the acceptance letter meant that we would probably drift apart in high school but when we were running through the hallway, late for our bus but also opening the email, she was cheering louder than me flipping off that one 7th grader looking at us weird. i really hope we never drift apart though, that’s the part of high school that I’m really scared for but i know that I’m gonna make so many memories there, doesn’t mean i have to be all happy about either. I ran into bansari at the pizza store and the amount of joy that we both had<33 I was holding an ice cream and my phone but the moment that we both saw each other we just ran for it and gave the biggest hug ever, I dropped my cookies and cream cone but i honestly did not gaf. I remember at Downey park, me bansari, and sanvi, both running barefoot in the amusement park north caring racing to get to the aqua racers first and knowing that it was gonna be one of. Our last times together. me, Kashvi, and bansari getting stuck at the top of the upside down roller coaster for 5 minutes crying then, laughing now. All these moments, all the pain all the joy, they’re what make us, shape us. Send them a quick text about just how much they mean to you. despite worrying thoughts I'm actually getting excited about this now? Like it's ok to be a bit scared, it doesn't mean you're weak. In fact you're even stronger cause you have the courage to continue despite everything in your mind that tells you you're gonna fail. And right now, you must be super scared going to college this fall huh? moving away from everything, i mean you’ve moved so many times before, and been to so many paces but this time, you’re doing this alone. After ammu and baba leave the dorm room, that it. And right now, typing this in my room, 3 days before my first day of high school, that **** terrifies me. I can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now, Defiantly scared but knowing me the way i do, i know somewhere deep inside the worry, is the joy and hope that you’re gonna meet a new group, keep in touch with everyone else though, and maybe find someone you can be with forever?? <3 (But bish you better focus on getting rich and being a successful smart doctor and paying off you’re parents for their sacrifices first )Well just remember that every single challenge that we've faced so far, we've gone above & beyond. Remember feeling miserable when we moved from Pittsburgh to NJ? Well remember finding the bestest friends you could ask for, always there in the media center to make dirty jokes? Remember feeling stupid in Algebra class every time you had a test, getting a 64 on what you worked so hard for? Remember the feeling of accomplishment when if all worked out, and you made it through all the tears? You survived every single on of your bad days and that's gotta count for something. Point is, I think we're gonna be fine. With all the love in the world, - 13 year old Nora moni September - 2 - 2022