A letter from Aug 29, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I don't know where to start.. this letter is just me complaining I'm always complaining Im getting tired of myself but I want you to have something to look up there in the future. As you remember I still have a letter to you that I wrote from Nov 6 2020. If you had read it. what did you feel are you happy? embarrassed? cringed? dissapointed? or perhaps sad? please write.. it's 11:53 pm I want to talk about how I changed but not really. I became very very conscious of how I look it keeps getting worse since 4th grade but I don't really talk about it back then, I gave up on meeting bts at a concert because I know I can never really make it, when I first go to school after 2 years of being home schooled I thought I changed but I'm still the same me from 2019 the clumsy, cringe, weird one. I'm still the same but worse I ******* hate to say it but it is what it is. At school I think my new classmates are expecting from me again like my ex classmates did, then at the end of the year they'll be probably dissapointed at me. I AM NOT WHAT YOU THINK PEOPLE FOR **** SAKE but honestly I want me to be what they think.. the kind, pretty, smart, neat me. the truth is as you know im dumb, weird as **** absolutely not neat, has low self esteem and hates school. I want to change but too lazy to start.. How are you doing are you still the same or you finally changed for the better, because I'm hoping. How's my english btw? I'm practicing it by speaking and writing so if u see any wrong grammars then I'm sorry.