A letter from Aug 25, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Currently you are feeling like a **** up. You are always on a quest to make this world connection; find yourself friendships that you will "cheers to the good life too" but that does not seem to last. You always feel the need to make these connections with "friends family" and in the same breathe forget your own family. You always wanna feel accepted by people. Do they matter to you? And if they do, why and how much? I am sorry that you seem to be too much for others and that is okay. And I want you to learn how to take responsibility for your own actions. Like be that person. Take a step back from yourself, at all costs. Remove yourself. And the father of your second child is not all that. I promise. You know this and you have always known this. I hope your hair journey is a bit cleaner now. Let me know how much you feel like crying. How are the kids? Zenande, does she still control you? You give that child too much power. Yes, Sthe made you aware of it but I feel like you have always known in the depths of your being. And Camagu? How is he? You really hope for a boy!!!! Goodnight. I hope school is going well. 25/08/2025! Happy 31st Birthday MAMA