A letter from Aug 24, 2022

Hey sudis from the future... first of all, happy 20th birthday! hope its going fine enough. well... its hard for me to write this when im in such a bad state of my life. you were such an overthinking kid. you worried about even the smallest things. and as you may remember, you have the biggest exam of your life in less than 10 months which will get you to a university, hopefully... anyways, hows life? did u become a therapist like you always wanted to because of your father who never listened to his own daughter. did you sort things out with him? what about mom and sis, are they okay? did my sister get a better job? i hope my mom is still alive at that time. i cant even imagine a life without her. köpük is probably gone, right? ): he is the goodest boy ever. growing up with him was one of the best parts of my childhood. what about ozan? as you may remember, we are so in love and ready to do everything with him even though we are 17. did you get married, or is there someone else who treats you like you deserve? or are you the rich aunt who has a lot of pets :D haha... feels weird to write this but hey lets look on the bright side. this could be a cute memory, who knows? anyways, gotta go. you know i love you no matter what state of life you are in. keep cherishing moments like i do now. live in the moment. feel everything or like you used to say "i think i feel like 3 people's feelings at the same time" also, if ozan is not in our life now, what did you do to the necklace he gave you? do you even think about contacting him anymore? anyways... lots of love from your past-self. -sudenaz