A letter from Aug 23, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Heya. I know I've written a lot of these emails. Sorry about that. Actually- why am I even saying sorry?? I know I love reading these and look forward to receiving them, so why would YOU be annoyed by them? If you are, suck it up lol. Because I love them. Anyways, hi. It's been a hectic Summer for me. I've been here at Dad's all summer again, like usual. It's pretty boring. We go to dance classes and the centennial every week but that's pretty much it. I usually just stay up really late on my phone playing games like Lioden or talking to Maria and Aiden and people on snap then sleep in until like 2 pm the next day. Rinse and repeat. It's pretty dull. Oh well. Since you're reading this, that means you're currently coming to the end of your first ever summer being free! How's it feel? Are Ava and Alexander sad? I'm sure they're okay. They never really seem to care that much about me anyways. At the same time though, this also means you just graduated from being a senior in high school! Wow! I'm absolutely terrified for you lmao. Are you applying to colleges? Are you past that time frame? I'm sorry, I don't really know how college works. Do you still want to go to medical school? Are you still going to be a surgeon? Oh my gosh what if you're not even going to college as you read this... 😬 If so, what went wrong? Are you okay? (Or are you just gonna be a stripper? Idk if we're pretty enough for that but okay pop off ig). Anyways, yeah. Life has been rough. I'm looking forward to going back to New York after all of this. Aiden has almost ****** himself more times than I can count, I've been stressed out beyond compare, and I'm currently having an identity crisis 😐 Like...ditsy. Cute. Girly. Soft. 👍 But also- Goth. Dark. Hot. Powerful. Also 👍 Like WHAT DO I DOOO I WANT BOTH (Or maybe I actually just wanna be ditsy and cute with a goth gf... 🤷‍♀️) OMFG if you tell me we ever get a goth gf I will absolutely die right here, right now. I WANT IT. GIVE. Don't break up with her. Goth girlfriend is end goal 😠 Who's your best friend right now? I don't really have one at the time of writing this. Me and Maria probably talk the most, but we are not best friends. She has one already and it's definitely not me. Delaney and I talk sometimes but not nearly as much as we did- Wyatt and I are complete strangers now, too. I don't think we've spoken a word to one another in months. It's kind of sad. But I guess that's what happens when you force your child to be absent from their daily life for several months straight, leaving their friends and world to keep running without them in the equation. It's like building a block tower and taking out a block. You add a replacement block in to keep the tower standing, but when you want to put the original block back in its spot, you can't. You kinda just have to cram it in somewhere else at that point. That's me. I am the block. So yeah...sorry I made that sad. God****, why am I apologizing to myself. I'm trying to work on that. Is this message too campy and self-aware? I'm not trying to but I'm having some fun with this 😐 Sorry I love you forever and always, You Ps. Did you end up ying your hair a ton of different colours or getting a nose ring? I REALLY want a septum piercing but Mom said no. I have it as my plan to get one the day I turn 18. You're past that, now. Did I do it? Do you have a nose ring? (Do it for the tiny octopus!) Anyways, love ya! Bye ♡